SHU LUAN's

HOHOHOHOHO

2009-11-23T22:56:00.002+08:00

http://know-shuluan.onsugar.com

view it. (:

TSL will be moving there soon.

still working on it! :D

wait for me! :D

Happy Birthday Mei Mei

2009-11-22T19:21:00.002+08:00

OK! seriously i dont know what im doing. should i or should i not? GOD! it's killing me. i got many many to say. but how? man!!!!!!!!!! HELP?!!!!!!!!!! AAARRRGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!! i feel so like ***********************!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Forget it. i guess you dont understand. Anyway, the best thing of today was the call from him in the morning. THANK YOU! if he happen to see this. (: Somehow had been wanting to talk to him like how we used to & he said he call me once ** **** *********! Before ***. Kind of like, cheer me up? MY mood changed after that. was much better. (: thank you once again. :D got to help out with mei mei BBQ now. will be back later. Hope can see ~~him~~ them later. (;

This feeling was nothing but shit.

2009-11-21T13:05:00.004+08:00

Got to leave it undone.
Will be out later.
I wont fall ill!
:)

Back! :D
went TPY with KLKL just now. (L)
had dinner together then bought smth for juju & moimoi YEO.
it's not what moi moi yeo want. :(
But it taste good though. :)
hahahas.
Kind of miss them.
tomorrow is mei mei birthday.
dunno what to do.
wanna have a suprise party but somehow...
too last min + i also dunno what to do.
hai, maybe just leave it.
ltr then decide. see what come to my mind.
today, everything was like, SHIT, except for my KLKL part! ;D
somehow, the way he treat me today was diff.
was it because that we have not meet up for days? ;)
i dunno but i love it! :D
LOL! :)
ok, i really cant do anything abt this comp.
Got to get ~~things~~ many things updated & uploaded!!!
if not nothing gonna work out. shit it.
i dunno what i want. MAN, it's shit!
Nvm. forget it.
when the time is right, i will do it right! ;D
Good Night! :)

back from camp!

2009-11-20T17:33:00.004+08:00

HELLO PEOPL! :D

Finally able to take a rest. chalet & camp is killing me!!! i'm seriously very tired + not feeling well. Looking at my blog made me feel even much NOT BETTER. So uncomfortable! i dont like this skin but i dont have time to find. I need to link people but WHEN?!!!!!!!!!!!! Have to post pictures & write bout the past few ~~weeks~~ MONTHS!!!!! HOW HOW HOW?!!!!!!!! can like somebody help me please? Tell me what to do!!!!!!! ;( & i'm starting my work (which is having some problem now) soon. HOW?! I'm really lost. sorry. I guess i need time to think bout what i really want. Got to rest soon.

Blog is in a mess !!!!

2009-11-15T18:55:00.004+08:00

OMG! HELP!
Blog is like shit!
Just let me leave my blog like this for the moment.
Will get it done asap! :D
Chalet & netball camp coming up.
;D BYE!

NOT IN THE MOOD

2009-09-18T20:14:00.002+08:00

NOBODY KNOW WHAT'S THIS FEELING LIKE!

chinese chess

2009-09-17T19:21:00.003+08:00

HELLO! :)
Hahahas. I played chinese chees just now.
With samuel & wcw.
Samuel is so diff from wcw, like obviously~
He's a great player. I mean samuel. =x
LOL! ;D
Today was kind of moody.
Dont really feel like talking to anyone in school.
Got the feeling like, 'CAN'T YOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE?!!!!'
sometimes i dont know what i want.
From him or from her, or even myself !!!
Forget it.
Got something to plurk about.
I think it's so much easier to plurk. ;D
So, off i go now! BYE! :)

Happy Happy Happy Day

2009-09-16T21:31:00.002+08:00

HEY HEY HEY HEY !!!! (:
Shu Luan is happy today.
She had fun fun & a lot fun today.
First, her last paper. (she dint do it well, but it does not matter.)
Next, pizza hut for lunch. (not the food made her full, but the laughter.)
Then, RP to play. (to the library,the court, the resting area,the toilet,the canteen,the bike,the way home.) ;D -so much fun.
After that, CWP. (walk,body shop,bbt,value dollar,parsa malan,bus,home.)
It all add up to a great day.
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i'm really afraid of losing you.
Many things came up my mind.
I dont know who to turn to,who can i tell.
Nobody really understand this feeling.
Who know how it feel like to be so in love?
To have overcome so many thing?
To been through so much together?
I may act as if i'm alright, i'm okay.
But the fact is, i'm not.
I felt so in love with you.
I never felt this way before.
It's a good thing, but somehow....
I'm afraid of losing you.
I really wish i can stop time.
To allow your hug, your kiss, your hand, your touch, you, stay.
Stay with me, always & forever.
I want you so much, so much more than anything.

i love life

2009-09-15T16:41:00.002+08:00

HELLO! ;D

There's so much for me to say.

Know what? Life's super great! :)

I don't know how to express this feeling.

Where i get everything i want, & nothing is bothering me.

Except for study~ =x

I don't know how to let you know that;

I'M SERIOUSLY IN LOVE WITH YOU!

How i wish i have you with me ~~everyday~~ every seconds.

I really miss him very very much.

BOY, i love you, i want you mine always & forever!

Never ever leave me please, KENNETH LEE KUN LIN.

Don't you know, life sucks without you?

Oh man, don't you see the beauty in life?
when your friends are the super great ones?
& the guys ROCKS! ;)

many pictures

2009-09-13T01:01:00.009+08:00

SORRY! It's gonna be super messy.
I tried to arrange the photos, but can't.
So will write a few words to let you understand more.
Hahas. OKAY! Here it goes~
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As you can see, it's...

WCW acting cute.

LOL!

Of cause, mei mei is as crazy as i am.

& this is me! :)

We tried to take our BIG BIG face!

& this is his.

This is mei mei's!

& this is mine's!!!

Mei mei got rabbit teeth? ;)

Dragon calling his mother.

Staying in s'pore today.

so 'll be meeting him 2mr.

i cannot explain what is he trying to do. =x

TAN JIA YU!

WONG CHOON SHIT! ;)

He kept on sms-ing YTD!

Dint do his work.

Lousy ~~boy~~ DRAGON!

I also dunno why pi pi's face like this.

But he's cute! ;D

Kept playing with his ipod!!!

It's miss tan! ;)

Mr Foo day-dreaming~

KLKL doing his work.

Good boy! :D

Hahahahahas!!!

i'm a good good girl! ;)

ME !!! :D

GOOD BOY!

Some people just went there to sleep~

See that?!!! Right?!!!!

& guess what woke him up?

Hmmm.... ;P

MY DUMB BOY! ;)

My * sister!

& some ~~people~~ dragon went there to eat & drink!

M'sian don't know that no drinking is allow! ;D

OK! That's pictures for the past few days.

Will upload chalet pictures next time.

Got to sleep now.

It's 2smth.

OMG! BYE!!!!

Ending off with;

Forever & always,

One & only,

MINE!

2009-09-08T20:33:00.003+08:00

Here's the photos! ;)
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Mei mei with her bike & hat! ;)

Siang, Di & Me! :D

Siang, Ting & Me!

BAO BEI !!! :*)

Taken by Kai Xin!

I'm a little dumb, ;P

My handsome boy with our bike.

Forever & always LOVED!

Me & xin xin!
-she's super ctue! + she's a good girl! :D
I LOVE HER!!!! ;D

PO PO, AH MA & PI PI! ;)

I'm so alone. :(

I want forever & always be with KENNETH LEE KUN LIN!
-Nobody ~~can, will~~ love me like you do.
I'm yours forever. =]

Nobody Nobody But You.
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Photos of us playing at the playground.
Here it go~

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WAIT! Enough is enough! Fuck this stupid blogger! __
Sorry, i REALLY did resize but it's not working.
so, just let this be super big la, ok!!!!!!

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OKAY! should be about there.
Some of it is still with CHUA KAI TING!
will get them on sat, so wait. :D
& the rest of the pictures might be here.
if you want, can view this; My cousin- ahh siang's blog.
http://ahsiang-theboy.blogspot.com/

back from chalet

2009-09-08T12:14:00.002+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE!

I'm back! ;D

The photos are not with me.

So give me time to get them done.

All i need now is rest.

So, good bye people.

Take care & rest well.

To: classmates

I CAN GET TO MEET ALL OF YOU 2MR! ;)

I miss them*!

To: cousin

Thank you for the day.

I love all of you lots! :D

library day

2009-09-06T00:20:00.003+08:00

NIGHT PEOPLE! :)
short & sweet, here it goes...... !
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went to library with guys*. This is a picture of a book i read.

& this is a drawing by MR LEE KUN LIN!

He's good right? My boy what, what do you expect?! ;)

& this is a little stupid. Got dumb. =x

OKAY! just so love my mei mei. (:
& sorry for the big picture.
i did resize, but blogger gone crazy again.
Tomorrow i'm going chalet, YEAH! ;)
be back with pictures. :D
just wait for me. BYE! :)

badminton game

2009-09-04T22:02:00.002+08:00

~ It's cute right? i know! ;)

Hello People! :D
Today shu luan is happy happy & happy!
about somethings, however. . . .
am sad over some stuffs. why?! idk.
Fine, crazy mood. lalalas~
Kay, today stayed in school to talk to juju yeo & moi moi yeo! :)
It's so fun, hahas. They are so cute.
There's so so so so man for us to share.
But!!! JUJU YEO got to study first.
It's a MUST for juju yeo to do well.
RIGHT BABY?! :D
HAHAS! k, will get to talk again.
MAN, got to miss them much much. :D
After that, went home around 4+pm.
With WCW, HAHAS!
The dragon idiot protected me, ;)!!!
Wahaahassss~!
Changed & off i go to meet TGS!!!
So the 4 of us played badminton.
Mei mei, choon woon, ghan shiang & me.
After a while, a little boy joined us.
He sat near us, looking lonely.
Actually we don't intend to let him play.
BUt... since.... i mean.... YAYA~ whatever! ;D
HAHAS! Allowed & joined!!!
While playing, AHS called me. ;)
HOW SIANG!!!! :D
He asked where we are, then joined us.
with wilson. on the bike.
Then wilson promise to give me a ride, THE NEXT TIME.
So, i'm waiting. Hahahas.
[ cause i know he wont. =x ]
OKAY! The guys are seriously funny.
Especially MR LEE KUN LIN!!!! :)
They played with the boy.
In a way of making fun? LOL!
cause he look cute! so round, =x!
Then they called him, [rice ball] in chinese.
OHya, we lied that he's ghan shiang cousin before that.
hahahahahas. It's so funny. :D
After that, some went home.
- ~~some~~ one off to meet girls.
oh ya! just now overheard poh & gs talking about girls.
LOL! hahas. i think they are in love with ... ... ... someone. :D
whatever la, hahas. :D
OK, after the game, off to bbt & then home.
WCW! should be happy right?
can get to eat at shu luan's home. hmmm... :D HAHAS!
ok! i got to stop. Really very tired. & the worst is,
MY STOMACH HURTS! REALLY SUPER PAIN!
I GOT TO SAY IT OUT, SORRY! :)

OK. TALKING ABOUT THE SAD THING.....
MAYBE IT'S NOTHING. (:
i dont think it's right to say it here.
but anyway, i never tot that he is also this kind of guy.
i know guys are flirt, but to a extend , to the ai ya! whatever la!!!!!!!
somehow, i feel like talking to him & let him know how i feel about it.
it's not angry, it's disappointed!
do you even understand?
i dun think so. forget it.
ARRRRGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm just a little not ok.

so many to be told

2009-09-03T12:57:00.001+08:00

OK! There's still something wrong with blogger.
Photos could not be uploaded. Nvm.
I miss chinese alot. :D
Got to work hard on other subjects ya, miss tan. (:
Hmmm...
Dint expect him to view my blog.
ohhh ya, whatever.
anw, i find him super cute.
it's always better to smile, boy.
the way he laughed to himself, HAHAS! ;D
okayyyyyy~
Got to read up some a.math & science.
Hoping that they will get into my head!
Cant wait for sunday to come. HOOO HOOO~
I'm going chalet, oh yeah! :D
so, the holiday would be some how like this;

5/9/2009- play around with ♥mei mei. Either go for a run, swim or a badminton game.
6/9/2009 to 8/9/2009- CHALET! [ with my family & my ♥KENNETH LEE]
9/9/2009- Back to school for a day workshop.
10/9/2009 to 13/9/2009- No ideas yet. [ but got to fix a day for a.math! =X ]

Okay, so when i know what i will be doing then get this done.
Oh ya!!! i want to watch movie. :(
WHEN? WITH WHO? ARRGGGHHH~!!!!
who can i go with? hmmmm....
Nvm, leave it first. :D
Nowadays i kept saty out at night.
Few days back, met up with shirley to pass her $$$. :D
around 10smth. Walked & talked & BBT! :D
After that went to shhh shhhh shhhhhh~ ;D
*somethings cannot be told* (;
just few days back, played badminton with mei mei.
till around 11plus. & it's so dark, ohhh my.
Guess what? we played again, yesterday. :)
was around 11smth, we slowly open the door & went out.
HAHAHAS! -hoping that mummy dunno.
Reached home around 12plus.
Then we laughed & played at home.
mummy open her room door & ... ... ...
DIE DIE DIE!!!
mei mei faster run & hide.
i'm all alone.
Mummy saw the rackets & stuffs, and said,
'crazy girl, so late still play badminton at home for what?!!!'
Wahahahahhahas. Then me & mei mei laughed.
Told her to go to sleep cause we stopped playing.
Till now, mummy still dunno. shhhh~ hahas. :D
Watched the moment of truth ytd.
reminded by wei sian, Thank you, :D!
the was super nice! cause....
they asked many many questionsSSSSSSsssSSSS that's like...
very personal. i dun think i can answer. =X
it'll hurt someone somwhow. =x
you should watch it, :D!
ya, while watching talked on the phone.
He kept laughing to himself la.
so * ! ;D
ok, got to plurk & then go bath.
if not someone will say me AGAIN!!!!
Hahahaas, ok, bye! :D

EXAM

2009-09-02T11:56:00.003+08:00

WHAT THE FUCK HAPPEN TO BLOGGER?
OH MY GOD!
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i type a long compo & then,
BOOOOOOH! it's gone.
Fuck it.
Whatever.
i just have one thing to say.
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THAT BOY IS SUPER DUPER KS.
Why the hell is he like this?
Cant he stop reading people's stuffS?
stop asking for noteSSSSS?>???????
Why must he kept looking at people's things?
know where they study, how they do it & SHITS!!!
WTFH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
& why must he even go flip his friends notebook when his friend went to the toilet?
Oh my. it's true that exam is scary.
Many diff faces are seem.
What worst is, he kept on writing when PENS ARE SUPPOSE TO BE PUT DOWN.
Since you so ks, why dont you take the paper home, complete it then pass it up?
WTH! _!_
Your actions bloody fucking sucks.
why do you even bother to ask me when you dun intend to change?
WHATEVER! DONT ASK ME ANYTHING NOW.
I WONT ANSWER YOU. go home read your noteSSSS to find out.
you make use of people, fucker. _!_
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SERIOUSLY, I HATE GUYS WHO THROW THEIR ANGER AT GIRLS.
do you think by saying a word SORRY really matter?
Who cares la! if others do, i dont.
Such gentleman of guys to SHOW OFF their anger this way.
TAN SHU LUAN HATE IT MAN!
Show your stupid anger to others, not me.
I force myself to SHUT MY FUCKING MOUTH!
you wont like it when i open it up when im angry.
So what if it's over now?
it happened. OKAY?!
Whatever, i dun need your sorry.
Show it off again, & i'll let you know,
GIRLS ALSO KNOW HWO TO SHOW OFF!
GOOD BYE!

let the blog rest

2009-08-28T10:28:00.004+08:00

It felt so glad to be the first student who walked out of the school.
It was so windy & the feeling was so nice.
Walking home alone made me understand what's peace.
And now, i know what i want.
I always thought, i can never be alone.
But i was wrong, i fear to be alone.
Now that i had overcome it, i fear nothing.
Nothing more that you can give me.
Thank you for appearing in my life.
Friend like her, friend like him, classmates like them, &... ...
Boyfriend like you.
All of the above, made me grow so much stronger.
Now you can see me lifting up weight of 123456789KG! :)
& i find myslef super lucky nowadays. Thanks god.

what the fuck with her?

2009-08-27T15:53:00.002+08:00

YOUR STUPID ATTIDUTE SUCKS !!!

-what the fuck?

friends,has.

2009-08-26T20:23:00.002+08:00

Studies distance us.

I'm sorry but i dont think anything will change.

I tried to tell you how i feel about things.

But nothing seems to change.

Now i know, what's a friend to you.

our 44th month

2009-08-24T21:23:00.003+08:00

Been through everything together,

for 44 months.

I'm waiting for the 44 years.

I LOVE YOU MORE EACH DAY.

i want you mine forever.

kenneth lee kun lin

2009-08-23T21:47:00.002+08:00

GOOD LUCK!

TO ALL MY CLASSMATES! :)

Especially him.

ahh ma house

2009-08-22T20:29:00.002+08:00

HELLO! :D

Sorry for this big big picture.

Dunno why, it cannot be resize.

Me got many pictures wanna post.

Next time ba, hahas. :D

OKAY!

Just ~~camp~~ came back from my grandma house.

Visited both my grandma as both stay near each other.

Daddy's mummy said many things.

Was upset of what happened.

Sometimes i wish i can take care of her.

However, sometime i don't.

I dun really know her, but seeing her this way,

saying all those things, made me felt. . . . . . . . .

NVM! i'm better now. (:

SMS-ed somebody today.

*smile* !!! ;D

Even though i know you won't read this,

thank you very much. For your accompany. ;)

blogger have something wrong

2009-08-22T00:41:00.002+08:00

NIGHT PEOPLE! :D

HAI! something wrong with blogger again.
Wont be able to upload photos.
waste my time go edit! *angry*
alot things hppened today.
was not in the mood now.
totally upset with someone.
sometimes, i wonder should i pity him or should i hate him.
good night people.
wont blog till my mood change.
cause ppl keep say i EMO?!
wth, i'm not. i dint. nvm.
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MUMMY! ah mei promise to work hard.
will get 6 A1s for you.
i will NEVER be like da jie or ah di.
Mummy don't worry, dont cry.
it's hurt me so much, when your tears fall.
i'm sorry, i fail to do my duty as a sister.
i'm really sorry. my brother is beyond my control.
i leaft with nothing to say.
MUMMY, I LOVE YOU! :)

O level MT resuts

2009-08-20T19:18:00.001+08:00

SHU LUAN IS SUPER HAPPY WITH HER O-LEVEL MT RESULT! :)

- i'm proud of myself.

Happy birthday

2009-08-18T16:24:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUSTIKA NATASHA & hON SHIRLEY!

- all the be everything you do.

- good luck for every exams.

- & stay happy forever.

One last thing, I LOVE MUSTIKA NATASHA ALOT ALOT! ;)

lalala

2009-08-17T00:11:00.000+08:00

OH YA~

WHATEVER!

chicken eye suck!

2009-08-15T19:20:00.000+08:00

HELLO! :D
2nd post of the day.
Nothing to do, hahas! :D
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OKAY! just now a stupid no brain dumb idiotic cat came INTO my house.
ARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH~!
It's black in colour with long long tail.
Feel so like kicking it.
While i was using the comp & mei mei was watching tv,
the cat walked into our house as if it was shopping.
walk so slowly, acting like it's it's house. *****
Then i saw it.
At first i to it was a dog. (:
Then wanted to walk over to it.
But it's not. IT'S A CAT!
OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I shouted like hell*!!!!
HAHAS! :D
& know what, hahahahahhaas.
the cat got scared by my shouting. LOL!
hahahahahas.
Mei mei quickly turned and saw it behind her.
Then it ran out of our house.
So stupid la!!!!!
I'm so scared. Cause only me & mei mei at home.
Di di & pa pa also not at home.
What if that cat run to our room AGAIN?
then nobody can help me le. :'(
Luckily my scream scared it away, LOL! ;D
Why do cats always like coming to my house?
i think they seriously have no body to turn to.
Cause nobody ~~love~~ like them.
Wahahahahahahahahahahahas!
STUPID CATS! ;X
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I'm going for movie later.
YEAH~! :D
Before i end, i just want to ask;
any one can help me with this? :(
A stupid 'chicken-eye' or 'corn' or whatever you wan to cal it.
It's fucking painful. i dunno how!!!!!!!! HELP ME PLS!!!!! :'(
Anw, juju jer! the plaster you gave me, thank you.
hope that it help. :(
& this is that fucking ugly stupid idiotic SHIT!

~ SHU LUAN IS SO UNHAPPY ABOUT IT! :(

Friendship

2009-08-15T14:26:00.000+08:00

Hey PEOPLE! :D

HELLO~

Ther's many things going roung & roung my head. HAS! Don't know who to turn to, where to go to, how to start & what to do. so how? You also cannot do anything for me right? hahas. :D okay~ got to be random cause' you know- shu luan have stm. =x

Start off with NATIONAL DAY! :D

School's celebrating was like shit man.

dunno how to say it. LOL!

Except for the group work we did in class.

It's super nice lahhhhh~ so sweet! ;D

I can see everyone get together to help.

it's a very sweet moment, right classmateS? ;)

However, we did it clique by clique.

ya, it's true.

so is this 'class-bonding' ?

zzzzzzzzzzz~!

♥kenneth told me that our class is not bonded together.

ya, i think it's so true. :D

However, i told him: 'im bonded with everyone what.'

LOL! hahahas. ;D

Okay, fine.

i'm irritating, noisy, troublesome, attitude & so on.

He told me that i'm the kind of girl which most girl dislike.

From what he said, i think it's true.

That's why im always with guys. >,<

Has. Girls are super troublesome people la.

so difficult to please. LOL! (:

kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk~!

Get back to the topic.

hmmm, i went out with my netball girls to celebrate on 9-8-2009!

Girls again? LOL! lame~ hahahahahas.

ok, the day was super fun. :D

i wish i can get to go out with them again. ;)

The place was filled with many people. OMG!

Got white, got black also got super black. =x

Some are super smelly + pervert +disguesting +irritating = YUCKS!

Dunno they are there for what. HELL! ;)

That night, JUJU,MOI MOI & ME got to sit down & talk.

Talk about many things. Was very happy.

THANKS FOR THE DAY! :D

SCIENCE PRACTICAL!

i dunno what the hell i'm doing.

kind of sad. :( know why?

AHS laugh at me!!!!!!! *angry*

cause i really dunno how to do the whatever window thing!

i shine out of the window & get nothing.

was like a dumb girl look for something behind the window.

i look so stupid! whatever la~ it's over anyway.

let him laugh lorx.

He happy can le la~ hahahas.

SS TALK.

was it useful? i cannot be sure.

kind of bored. so sian.

While listening, i fall asleep.

LOL! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

Many people were there.

Not really that noisy.

After that, we went for ORAL with miss wong.

It's so fun. cause i get to laugh laugh & laugh.

But to myslef. zzzzzzzzz! =) HAHAS!

miss wong is really a very nice teacher.

just that sometimes her wire can be abit loose.

LOL! i'm bad. hahahas.

i'm also like that. ;)

I think, most girls are like that.

Right boys? :D HAHAS!

Whenever the girl gone mad, it's the boy who suffer.

LOL! hahahahahas! :D

I should really thanks my friends who can hold their anger towards me. =x

i'm a very mean or nasty girl. i say rubbish*. SORRY! ;X

WAhahahahahhahahahas~! :D

Now, let me talk about PEOPLE.

who should i start with? hhhhhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmm....

First up; SAMUEL LEOW LONG HUA!

LOL! hahas. surprise that you're the first? ;)

LEOW! you got to control your 'anger'.

I dunno who to, but ... ... ... ... hmmm.

ok, i also cannot control mine, i dunno what to say le.

LOL

NVM! anw, THANK YOU YA!

For being such a nice & understanding friend.

Sorry if i did upset you somehow.

Thanks for being able to take my attidute. :D

Next, WONG CHOON ~~SHIT~~ WOON!

HAHAS! sorry ya, for playing with your ***!

& always making fun of you.

hahas, but it's really fun.

Oh ya! thank you for being able to play around with me.

& not get angry. :D

SO, watch movie with us tonight? (:

Hope to see you later.

ANG HOW SIANG!

you are a **** boy!

Hahahas. Nobooy know what is that.

Even you dunoooooooooo it! LOL! (:

Hahhaahhas. i just love calling you;

THE **** BOY! :D come kill me :P

FTS!

Lalalalallalalalallalalalallalalalalallalalalalallas~

i dunno what i want to tell you.

All i want to say can tell you face to face.

i mean, need to tell you face to face.

so that i can get to see your reaction. :P

LOL! hahahahahas.

okay. anw, THANK YOU!

For not being angry with me. :D

& for the fun & laughetr you gave me. :D

wink* ;)

SERENE TAN!

watch movie tonight? :D

SIM XW! :D

Hahahas. A nice name ya. hmmmm...

Take care of yourself.

Drink more water. :D

Rest well.

SHIRLEY TAY!!!!!

OMG! shit. i'm sorry. i forget pass you the money. =x

SORRY SORRY SORRY! :(

Btw, thank you ya.

THANKS alot! ;D

MR ♥LEE KUN LIN! :)

i only got 5 words for you.

THANK YOU, I LOVE YOU.

OKAY! Got to stop here. Tired!!!!! ;x

AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

WAIT! i want to watch BOF tonight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(((((((((((((((((

HOW???? HOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW??? HOW?

Either movie or BOF. Which one should i choose?

can someone help me? :D

i know i can get to watch both.

But i dunno what i want for tonight.

i feel like staying at home to watch BOF.

But i also want to go watch movie with them tonight.

HOW? hai. IDK!!!!

Nvm, just wait for WCW.

see what that ~~SHIT~~ boy going to say.

GOOD BYE PEOPLE! :D

sometimes, i wonder why we become like that.

the you i know change so much.

i know you wont see this yet i wan to write it.

did i do something that made you angry?

i dont even have the chance to speak to you now.

How to open my heart to talk to you? !!!!!!!!

you told me, i can turn to you.

are you sure?

sunset

2009-08-13T21:23:00.001+08:00

Some teachers are just like dogs.

& some friends are just like shit.

Fuck off please.

READ THIS!

2009-08-11T23:05:00.001+08:00

Treasure the one you love.

GOOD NIGHT PEOPLE! :)

knowing me

2009-08-10T23:05:00.002+08:00

I was looking at people's blog & found a quiz at Ellie's blog.
This is my result. You can go try it.
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
Btw, she have a nice blog. LOL!
& i only know that she's my schoolmate. -,-
HAHAS! :D
~
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

GOODBYE & GOOD NIGHTS! :)

netball girls

2009-08-10T15:36:00.002+08:00

My Girls! :)

I want yesterday to last.

Thank you girls.

ME LOVE YOU! ;)

JUJU JER & MOIMOI JEN!

I really love talking to you all.

Thank you very much.

Next time we'll talk again.

Love you! *muackz*

life is great

2009-08-09T00:36:00.002+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE! :)

SHU LUAN want YOU to cheer up & be happy.

SMILE!!!! :)

Because your smile made me smile, :D!

♥Assume that every problem in life is a lesson to make you stronger.

So don't give up. Stay strong. I know you can do it.

One last thing,

I LOVE YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!

BYE BYE PEOPLE

2009-08-07T23:49:00.003+08:00

You people,

don't understand how hard it is,

to take all this.

It's not just friends,

family,

teachers,

school,

studies,

money,

relationship.

It's the whole world;

because ... ... ...

he is the world to me.

Being with you is the toughest thing to do.

Yet, i wont give up. I will be even stronger.

birthday party

2009-08-02T00:18:00.003+08:00

Let pictures do the talking.
:D

OKAY! :)
My cousin is super duper cute! :D
He's shy la~ ;D
& ther's a picture, where we should be taking it together.
Then when my brother took it,
he went all the way forward. HAHAS!
That's why his face so big with us so little behind.
zzzz! LOL! :D
I feed him chocolate cake just now.
& the cake really is super black!
LOL! hahas.
He eat in a way that's super cute man!
GOD! i love him, :)
HAHAS!
Hmmm, kay.
Ending off with this;

Some people just have no brain.
They don't think before they speak.
Who on earth like to know that they themselves look ugly?
Who love people calling them old, ugly ah ma?
I don't think any one ~~love~~ like it.
What if one day someone go up to you.
& tell you that you look very ugly in this picture.
you have winkles and you look like an old crazy freak.
& they bull shit to you.
What do you think of that?
I'm sorry for the attitude i gave,
the anger i let out & the temper i threw.
i know i should not say things this way but i cannot control it.
why should i even bother about you?
who are you to me? A friend? i don't think so.
I tried to tell you what you should not be doing.
but it doesn't seem to help.
many people are telling me things about you.
i wont mention who say this and who say that.
i tell you what i think and how i feel.
it's not just a person, tow or three or even four or five.
it's more than i can count, i think.
i don't want people to say you this way.
i tried my best to help, but I'm sorry.
i don't think i can do anymore.
when one day you find me not talking ABOUT you,
that's when i finally give up on you.
where i wont even give a fuck.
i don't want people to dislike you.
what more can i do for you?

-one last thing, i dunno why is she like this.
i want keep her as my friend,
but what she did, prove me not.

GOOD NIGHT PEOPLE! :)

she is in love

2009-07-30T19:14:00.000+08:00

Please stop telling the world about it.

& pushing the blame to her,

acting like it's all her fault.

you really did NOTHING ?

Think before you say everything.

-stop your bullshiting.

what are friends for

2009-07-29T19:02:00.002+08:00

Humans are indeed selfish.

- you know what? you don't know.

fuck up

2009-07-27T20:41:00.004+08:00

I REALLY HATE SCHOOL!

_!_

& I hate to look at the fuck face of yours.

Ther's so many things happening.

Nobody seem to understand this feeling.

Not even you.

Sometimes, i wish i can say in your face,

i really * you.

Teachers in school SUCKS!

Epically that action pig!

who take ~~days~~ ~~weeks~~ MONTHS to go through a paper.

& throwing the fucking temper of * in class.

-such stupid world, with her around.

video-don't trust me

2009-07-26T11:35:00.001+08:00

I MISS THAT BOY, alot alot.

more then alot to say

2009-07-26T00:00:00.000+08:00

SHU LUAN is not in a good mood now.
But i will still blog day by day for you.

20July2009

Today, i laughed so much with how siang & choon woon. I'm really happy talking to them. CW sure is a English pro man. I bet no body can win him. ohhhh~ Talking to them, made me laugh like a crazy girl. hahas. AHS keep repeat whatever he said. [ the wrong one] ;x HAS! & today, i name him KPK. I told hs wat it mean & blah blah blah. was fun & funny overall. So let's learn english. ;D
OHYA! STUPID DRAGON, rmb what i told you horx. It's not playing to me. So please, don't do it again. I won't be so nice to pretend that nothing happen again.

volume = wor-lum = snail [in chinese]
vista point = wistars point
cooperate = core-O-per-rate
vomit = O! [hahas]
contained = content
non-muslim = none muslim
butcher = BA-cher
snow white = snore white
& alot more~ WAHAHAHAS! :D

21July2009

All i can say is, HOOO HOOO HOOO~
Cause i don't remember much. ;x
Ya, Kenneth, Samuel & i stayed back after school.
For English oral practice with miss Wong.
Me is crazy, kept laughing non stop.
Hahahas, cos the way we* speak,
was so ... ... ... ... ... HAHAHAS! LAMMMMEEEEEEEE~! :)
okay, this day, WCW did not turn up for school. hooo hooo~
PEACE MAN! ROCK ON! :D

22July2009

Guess where did i went to? HAHAS! :D
I went to watch Kobe!!!!!!! :)
Cool man, he's SUPER DUPER COOL! (:
Oh my god man! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
There were so so so* many people there.
Everybody was suppose to shout 'KOBE'.
So that he will appear. ;)
Then everybody kept shouting so so so* loud.
HAS! it's so fun man. I shouted too, but softly, hahas! :D
He walked around, acting such big boss. [ alt he's one, ;x ]
He taught them how to play bball.
The correct way to deference, to attack, to shoot & so on.
Saw Richard there. & Russel, my brother's friend.
Kobe picked Russel & everybody was like WOW, WOOHOOO~! :D
He made him run up & down the line 17 times.
In order for him to stay awake all day.
But, he ran more then that.
About 14 + 17 = 31 ?
not so sure. dint count. :D
cause' the first time he tried to cheat him then he punish him? LOL!
HAHAHAS! :D
Anw, after the run, everybody gave him so so so loud clapS! :D
& Kobe gave him a hug man, WOW! hmmm, :D!
Then he teaches other kind of play & so on.
He then asked the coach for a player. [a position which i dunno. =x]
The coach choose Richard. Hmmmm, cool, :D!
Then he teaches him, played with him & so on la~
Hahahas! :D
After that, he throw about 20balls to the crowd.
With his signature on it. !!!!!!!!
I was hopping that i could get one.
I mean, everybody does wish for that, :D!
who don't want to get it? ;D
But, no luck, i dint get it, :( !!!
NVM LA! :D hahaaahahahas.
♥Kenneth & his bro also very upset, hahas.
ok, & then, know what>?!!!!!
He took off his shoe & sign on it & gave to 2 little kid.
WOW!!!!! :D hahahas.
i don't wish to have this then, LOL!
To me, i think it's very smelly plus yucks plus eeeyer!
To take an old shoe of others, hahas.
But everybody SURE WANT to have it lorx.
There's a china-no brain guy ran towards him.
When he just took it off, that guy run run run~
Ohhhhh~ hahahhas!
Then all his body guard 'STOP!' hahahahas.
They pulled him away, LOL!
such a clown. making a fool out of himself.
& then, 2 little kids got that.
Hmmmm, i always agree, being a kid is the world best thing. :D
& I LOVE CHILDREN! I LOVE KIDS! ;D
They are so so so so so super duper CUTE! (L)
After that match, i blah blah blah & la la la.
Dont want to say it.
Now, it's pictures! ;)

Better pictures are with ♥Kenneth. [because he left me alone & went forward to see.]
Videos maybe upload next time? Cause' loading very long. [lazy to wait]

At ♥Lee's house. After that. & packed bag, changed, off we go~

HAHAS! & Look at ♥him. wahahahahas! :D

-such a cute ♥boy right? (;

23July2009

Did not went to school.
Why? -don't need you to know.
Met up with samuel in the library.
♥Kenneth, ♥samuel & i ! :D
We did our project work.
Talked & eat together.
& the food there was super nice! ;D
♥YUMMY~! :D

Okay! ♥Mei mei try to touch samuel. She want me to take this picture & show it to serene. hahas. She say serene will kill her after that & samuel will protect her. =x zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!! AS IF samuel will protect her la~ samuel sure side * what. RIGHT? ;)
Look at the last picture. Mei mei & ♥kenneth's idea. stupid lorx, GAY ANG HOW SING! He told us that he will be coming then he din't turn up. ♥Kenneth ask ♥mei mei to put as if there was someone sitting there so that people won't sit there. But in the end, they dint turn up. Watse people time.

24July2009

Pictures will tell you what day it was.
Was not in a good mood.
Many things happened.
& ♥miss lim, i really don't know should i thank you for the talk or should i * you.
i know you care, but don't you think you should MYOB?
Seriously, i ~~don't like~~ HATE people to tell me;
WHAT I SHOULD OR SHOULD NOT DO.
i know what i'm doing & what i want.
Don't need you to worry that much, thank.
The school is just being over CRAZY*.
Such a small thing had to make it SO big.
as if the * die like that. _!_
whatever, i don't care.
you can explain to me, ask me or whaever,
just don't TELL ME WHAT TO DO.
i hate it. you just are so like her*.
keep telling people what they should do or should not do.
So what if i do things my way?
what can you do to me?
keep complain and shout at me?
show your fucking attitude at me?
this is not the first time already.
whatever~ [ _!_ ]

Many pictures taken not with me.
Only this three from miss sim! ;D
THNK YOU ♥XW!
& LOOK! SAMUEL & SERENE!
Good job samuel, well done.
Give you this, ♥!
-can give it to her the next time. ;)
& serene, treat me eat arx! cause' you win again. LOL! :D
HAHAHAS! :D
~
After that, i went swimming with my sister. GOD! she's the best gal la. ME LOVE ♥TAN JIA YU! ;) Swimming is the best thing man. i feel so relax. it's like i'm in another world. i am SURE i will be going there again. LOVE IT SO MUCH! :D
KAY! after that, went to the library. Meet up with ts & cw there. Then ♥Lee came. Went there to eat again*. YUMMY! so nice. hahas. They love it too. ;D & they say it's nice! :D & i laughed till my tears drop man! so so so SUPER* funny la. Being with TS & CW! cw KEEP* anyhow read words. OMG lorx. HAI! i dunno how to train him also, zzzz! all i know is to laugh at him. hahas! LOL! :D Cause' TS la! He horx! OMFG lorx. All the rubbish he said. HAHAHAHHAS! made me & mei mei laughed till stomach pain. Hahahas. I so want it to happen again. He said many things la. But very different to type out, so just leave it. i know can le, hahas! :D
KAY! Mei mei & i was waiting for AHS to turn up. But NEVER did we expect he dint turn up because ***! [ _!_] was really super duper disappointed with him. They then leave for their dinner. Mei mei & i took bus home. Was really upset plus heart really* super hurt since then. Disappointment was written all over mei mei's face. My heart really hurts to see her like that. i dunno for what reason must she react this way. But seriously, i'm upset too. WHY? why on earth are you like that? Leave it. ♥pictures of the day.

There's atill many pictures of us.
& ♥MEI MEI PICS TOO! :)
HAS! Don't feel like uploading, so ... ... ...
This is the library part.

25July2009

Today went to ♥grandma's house.
Every one kept talking about me. :(
They say i don't want go there what.
Why turn up again.
Feel so sad. i'm busy what.
Not i don't want to. :D
hahahas! :D
Anw, was happy there.
Nothing much happen.
Just feel so loved.
& they just are such super great people la.
Next sat will be going over to one of my cousin house.
Her 21 birthday.
Can gamble & play with kids again.
Gonna love it to the max! :)
Can't wait for that day to come.
Hahahahahahas! :D
-
Now, it's my feeling time. I gonna say what-ever i think. No offend to who ever.

okay, you are the one or maybe the things you said made me go super crazy. in a way that i cannot think, cannot live my life. i feel so much better after my swim. what ever it gonna be, wi had enough. be it you wan to act this way or that way, i got nothing more to say & even if i do, i won't say it. seriously, it's fuck up. i wonder why in my life you ever appear. or maybe why in this world. to everybody, all other people. i knowhat i want. i dont need any of you to tell me. and you. i really dunno what more to say or what should i do. ya, it's your life. i should never care at the first place. it only made me felt so stupid. i thought, it's all about the girls. but i was wrong. the problem is you. you. you play girls like your toy. you feel like playing this, you go to it. you feel like playing that, you go to that. you are a sweet person. girls fall easily to you. cause' they are stupid enough to believe you and you are clever enough to hide everything. i wonder when will you ever wake up. i hate my life being control by you. finally you can stop telling me what to do and not to do. i really pity her. wonder how she live life with you. with him around, i really did learn alot. you sure is a guy who teaches me many things. since the day we are together, you became my teacher in a way. you never fail to make me grow. my dear, i'm so much stronger now. but still, at times, i fail to control my tears. i'm weak, i know. whatever. sometimes, i miss that moment, where i'm sleeping & someone cover me with his blanket. oh my, he's sweet. thand at comfort was something others cannot give. and that stupid idiot! do i really look like a boy or sound likw one or act like one or am one? man! fine, anything. so what if i am a boy? so what if i have muscle? hahas. stupid boy. anyway, i enjoyed the talk with you. you are someone i can talk to. i can say whatever i want, what ever i like but still, i wont keep talking to you. hahas. cause of what ever shit was that. lalalala. and him, was nice enough to send me home. thank you. it's you, yes you know it. thank for asking him about me that day. i'm fine & mei mei was there with me. such a good friend like you, kept in my heart. and she, omg. the way she wear also can represent her class. dunno what is wrong with the class's eye. lamo. no brain idiot was such a pig. fucking kind of idiot was so stupid. hahas. how do i sound like? crazy. he some time is so acting clever as if he know everything. & please, look into the mirror with a plastic bag in your hand. i should just say it in your face but still, i dont have the guts to hurt you this way. let you think like how you think. at times, i cannot stand you. eyer! yucks. eeeeeeeeeee! finally finally finally. peace at last. i wonder how long will it last. a week? or maybe two? hai. nvm. let it be. i wont give a fuck. it not the first time, neither was it the second, third or fourth or fifth. or whatever. stupid. sometime i dont know how to face you or tell you. the distance is drag so far away. but still, i wont tell. you always think she was the one for you. you never know. i feel so like telling you alot things. butwhen i see that you are so close to her, i never want to tell. cause' the trust i have for you is no longer there. all the things you did to me, all the thingdid for her s you , all the things you shown me, dear girl, i'm sorry. hope she was the one for you. but still, if one day, you need me, i will be there. i will never leave you alone like how she leave her when she need her the most. good bye. dumb people like you read this. hahas. ;D

i think i should stop blogging for so time.
Cause' there's a * trying to read & find out about my life.
It's so scary, it's so sick.
ya, sure is sick.
I mean, crazy.
Good nights people.
Good bye.
Lots love!
;D

lalalala

2009-07-25T12:40:00.002+08:00

I'll tried to post it tonight.
Now gonna get ready & off i go;
to my grandma house! :D
BYE BYE!

& i miss him.

tired short post

2009-07-25T01:27:00.001+08:00

I am very tired.

Going sleep now.

SORRY! :)

Post tomorrow, :D!

good nights.

BTW, he's so flirt. _!_

good bye people

2009-07-19T23:32:00.001+08:00

GOOD BYE PEOPLE !

♥SHU LUAN will be back on friday.

Tag me if you are here, thanks! :)

Don't need to miss me.

Cause i will miss you.

Lots love! :D

♥

END OFF WITH;

Remember this? It's SHU LUAN's birthday! :)

With them around, my smile never fails to appear.

with; SAMUEL LEOW & WONG CHOON WOON TOO !!! :)

HAHAHAS! :D

This is to cheer you all up! :)

Laugh all you wan at it, it doesn't matter anyway.

It's a old old photo ya~ ;D

TAN SHU LUAN know who are her friends.

Don't need any of you to tell me, THANK! (:

wcw send songs

2009-07-19T17:46:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHAS!
Thank you very much.
For all the songs you send.
:D

HOOOOO~!
i'm going out for dinner with Mr lee later.
WOW? :D
hahahas, :D!
guess what time i woke up just now?
:D
7am+ !!!!
cool right? ;)
i went running with juju! :D
as well as her friends & jenny moi moi + me mei mei.
so tired~ hahaas, :D
it's better to run with the faster ones, ;)
lalalalalalallalalallalalalala~
i dunno what to say.
so many things.
so complicated.
anyway, i will blog again later.
& then give my blog a rest, ;)
Be back on friday.
wahahahahahhahahas! :D
because, he told me not to blog.
*wink wink*
;)

Bye bye~

& FOR THIS f*-king good ACTOR!!!!
OMFG! You are just so good at acting.
If you say he is the one flirting girls all around,
through sms, i don't know what you are.
To meet up & pretend to study?
as if you are so clever to teach.
why don't you spent time on your own study?
_!_
one last thing, you totally should ask yourself why.
why the fuck i hate you so much.
you had changed or I've know the true you?
for so many years, i was stupid*

FUCK YOURSELF !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! _!_

i dont know why

2009-07-19T00:22:00.000+08:00

HEY!
i don't understand.
can someone tell me?
i always thought you are different.
i told you so many.
i thought you understand me.
i guess I'm a fool.
it's me who mistaken you.
why can't people stay away from my bf?
what must they say such things to my bf?
are they jealous or what?
they don't understand.
& i don't need to explain.
i wish i can answer this;
who are they to me?
i tried so hard.
what do i get?
seriously, why can't they just fuck off?

Tonight, ♥SHU LUAN got no one to talk to.
GOOD NIGHT people.

what more you want?

2009-07-17T20:22:00.000+08:00

AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH TO BE YOUR FRIEND?

- you just don't understand me well enough.

OR maybe, i'm the one who don't understand you.

sometimes, i just wish that your face wont appear infront of my eyes.

for 5days a week, fuck it hard. _!_

your fucking act, i'm so piss off.

samuel pic

2009-07-17T15:05:00.000+08:00

LEOW LONG HUA WALKED ME HOME TODAY!
THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

pictures

2009-07-17T00:50:00.000+08:00

That's my day! :)

OK! Good nights people.
It's 12:47am now.
& i'm waking up at 6am (try to) tomorrow.
So, BYE! :D
ANW, i love talking to him.
& i should just say, I LOVE HIM! :)

i hate his girlfriend

2009-07-14T18:08:00.000+08:00

She proved it to me.
Now, i HATE your girlfriend.

HEY GIRL,
don't mind, keep your fucking eyes to yourself?
i feel like slapping you.

Because of him, i kept quiet. _!_
PROVOKED!

why don't you fuck her upside down?
_|_

running at 1something at night

2009-07-12T04:22:00.000+08:00

HELLO! I'm back. (:
It's like so long since i can get to meet my da juju! :)
We went running at around 1something am?
or 12 something ba. cant remember. (:
Ran about only one round of the path way.
Not too big in a way & not too small in a way.
Aiya! just that i think i can run more.
It's a piece of cake la, hahas! :D
Cos da juju too weak le, so had to stop. :P
wahahahas! :D
Anw, i really enjoyed myself.
It's just so fun & i love my day.
& guess what?
MY LEE IS HOME WITH ME NOW! (:
He waited for us to come back from our run.
We went vista point for dinner too.
with mei mei! (:
Now, mei mei really like him.
Keep on crap with him. LOL!
& the way they laughed is like so dam cute man! HAS! :)
okayyy~!
i'm talking to WCW now, on msn.
hahas, he's so funny la.
& he is very very super duper LAME!
look at all the tag, hai yo!
hahahas! LOL! :)
ok, there are just so many people caring about me.
asking me what happen & stuff.
I'm fine, REALLY! (:
Just that few questions are without answer.
How?
juju say time will answer my question.
Really? will it? I hope so. She too, :D!
hahas! :D
Now, i'm trying not to care.
The best way is to STOP using comp.
BECAUSE computer is the thing that show me *** !!!!
& make me *** !!! cos i see ****!!!! & i know **** !!!!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~!!!!!!
I never know, i'm treated this way.
i tried to stay away.
OK!

NOW!
Shu Luan won't use comp that often.
Because she don't want to know so much.
It will just upset her.
She want to stay happy.
& she really miss a guy very very much.
I'm not sure if you will read my blog.
if you did, i hope you know that;
I REALLY MISS YOU ALOT.
even though i can get to see you.
i know you know it's you.

story for choon woon

2009-07-11T00:43:00.000+08:00

Taken by: Kenneth Lee

Without; Ang How Siang

PS; i dint know I'm suppose to press my nose. (:

Today, ♥SHU LUAN have a story to tell.
Specially for the World Coolest Weirdo.

Once, a boy stayed over at his grandmother house. He's very happy because it's winter there. He will be able to make his own snore-man. All he have to do is to core-let the snore and build it up. It's getting cold out there, so he decided to measure his thermometer. He take out his temperature from his bag. He then find a store-li book about hu-ri-ken in his bag. There's a pear-shage about how hu-ri-ken can kill people. He then went back to tell his grandmother about it. His's grandmother tell him, 'don't worry! This won't happen here. Grandma bring you go eat mac-know-ner.' He then answer, 'ok! wait for me. I go take my pee-low and store-li book. I want to go to the lai-ber-ry to read.' Grandmother then answered him, 'ok boy. Bring some see-real to eat too.' The boy shouted, 'NO NEED LA! The food also wont d-gest so fast.' On the way to mac-know-ner, he saw two boys fighting over a ba-loon. One of the guy then struggle the other boy. He saw the one being struggle strangling. He wanted to help but his grandma stopped him. They then went off to mac-know-ner. THE END! :)
~
Hahas, i feel so bored. That's why tell you a story. Like it? :D
Don't blame me horx, there's still more. HAHAS! :P
I forget about the ear piece thing. LOL! :)
~

Guys really are something good to be with. Be it this or that, that or this, they wont blame you. Neither will they say or scold you. They are also not that petty, to remember all those rubbish you said or did. Whatever it is, i find my guys the best guys on earth. :D HAHAHAS! :D
I really wish i know why will i feel this way towards you. Beside her, you are the another one i trust. She's the one i enjoyed being with & someone i trusted. Now, she's no longer so close to me, or maybe not close at all. Beside my juju & moi moi family, i never trust girls this way. I always think that they xxx & *** ! Fine, i'm a girl. So? i just so dont like it la. I don't know how should i say this. I really enjoyed the times i spent with you. I thought i could, or maybe i cant. I want to say, but i don 't want. I know you will be reading this. But you may not know that it's you i'm talking about. I wont say much. I hope you don't know it's you. Never come ask me anything please. I just cant face you to say all this. It's best to leave you where you are now.

SPECIAL THANK YOU TO JERENE YEO & LIM KIAN SIANG!
You all the goody good one! :)

day out with the guys without hubby

2009-07-10T01:31:00.000+08:00

Taken during class outing.
-without AHS! :(

HELLO PEOPLE! :D
Shu Luan is happy today.
for whatever the reason, i don't care. (:
It's a Friday, no. a Saturday. (:
A day for me to rest, to have fun.
& now am not caring so much.
For what the fuck happened, HAS!
i know what i can do now.
& i can do it so much better.
:D, OK!
Actually going out with xw & serene to yishun?.
Then changed to AHS's house. *big big smile*
WCW went to helped him with his comp's stuff.
So i wanna tag along. (:
Just want to take a look at his house.
It's not kpo, it's curious. :D
& know what?
His's house is BEAUTIFUL.
Real nice, very neat.
Mei mei, wilson, cw & i went to his house.
Why mei mei keep following me/us?
Cos mei mei is a good gal mah. :D
& she loves my friends.
Hahahahas. :D
I also dunno.
She want to go to his house too.
So we went there together. :D
We look around his house, play some of the stuff.
& so on la. :D
It's just so fun. wink*
With choon woon around, really is fun.
know why?
cos we SURE will laugh at him.
For no matter what he do, :D.
Hahahaahahhahahhahahas! :D
okayyy~ not being bad.
But it's just smth funny la.
just for fun & laughter la. (:
After that, went cwp for dinner.
No, i mean 888plaza. idk?!
Whatever, i dun care any way.
Btw, while walking from cwp to 888,
the guys was so dam good.
cos they left mei mei & me behind.
walking alone. :D
Lucky, ther's always a great one,
who will come to us, :D!
& who is it? (:
As expected, ANG HOW SING! (:
Ther's many little things untold.
i wont say a shit. you knw it.
if he's a bad guy, then wat cal good?
you just have to collect back all your words.
know why?
cos all decribes you.
you better think man, it's not him.
_!_
i'm not on his side or wat.
or maybe i am. (:
cos, seriously you sux.
i can say nothing much now.
hahahas, & i dun wanna say it too.
i just know that, he's GREAT! (:
i'm tired now.
but i dun wanna sleep.
BECAUSE, i wan to xxx & ***!!!
HAHAS! :D
you dun knw what i will be doing.
so, fuck off. BYE! (:

put on your act & face the world, fucker.
_!_

you will stay forever in my heart.
for whatever you did or said,
THANK YOU!
i miss you very much.
i love nights with you.
i want to hug you.
i wanna feel you.
LOVED!

now, i hate you.

2009-07-09T17:12:00.004+08:00

It's not suppose to feel this way.
WHY?

shu luan

2009-07-08T23:21:00.002+08:00

Whatever it takes, i wont give up.

Those ♥guys are the best thing on earth. (:

& there are just some people who don't worth you angry for.

EDITED.

I'm a fool to believe you.

Now, i'm stronger.

THANK YOU! _!_

movie day out

2009-07-07T21:40:00.000+08:00

THANK YOU!
- for the day out.

HEY! I went to watch movie with MR LEE, SAMUEL, WCW, FTS & WILSON.
BY FORCE, i won. (:
Thanks alot guys.
It's a great show, :D!

xex0xlxnx is a stupid word.
i don't have to take it to heart.

facebook quiz

2009-07-06T22:28:00.002+08:00

This is me.

You are Orange! You are a fun loving, energized person who loves to have fun. You love to be with friends, and probably like being in the middle of things - all the time. Not to say that you're crazy hyper or intense, you can actually be pretty chill. You just love to have fun. You are probably happy most of the time (that's the yellow in you) but you can also be passionate and possibly have a bit of a temper (that's the red in you). You're a little off-beat; you like to stand out! Your friends know that they can always count on you to keep things interesting. You, in a nutshell: Fun loving, go-with-the-flow, unique, adventurous, outgoing, funky. ORANGE!

You have come out with the Oceanic soul type. This would describe you as a person who is generally happy inside with an array of surfacing moods that tend to effect the people around you more than you would like. You are very busy dealing with things that seem like they would make no sense to the people in your life. You long for communion emotionally with someone but can't seem to find anyone who fits the bill. It is exceedingly important for an Oceanic soul to realize they are part of something by nature that is so vast, so incredible, so infinitely changing that they do not need to 'connect' the way they have learned to think that they do. All they really need to do is take notice of the beauty they are a real bonafide part of and participate fully. It is by exerting will in this small behavioral way that will bring them into a light that is very attractive to the right kind of people for them. Ironically, once an Oceanic realizes what they are a part of and starts to really willfully participate, they no longer feel such a need for connection.. cest la vie.. so get busy Oceanic soul! You have a lifetime of tides to ebb and flow through, and a whole world of beauty to be a part of.

Everybody's doing a brand new dance now, and you are ready to jump on the party train! You are anything ut dull. In fact, you are wild, spontaneous, quirky, flirtatious, flashy, and spunky. Life is a wild ride for you, and you take downfalls with a grain of salt. Your motto is "the bigger, the better." You might be a little indulgent, but it gets you far in life. You work hard so you can play even harder. You are one of the rare combination of conservative ideologies and cutting-edge attitude. You know when to take life seriously, but overall you just wanna have fun and live your life to it's fullest, most radical potential. You use any and every thing to express your creativity and individuality-- your clothing style, hair, the music you listen to, the way you decorate, the kind of car you drive, and the way you can turn something boring into a statement-piece. Your vivaciousness is what people love about you and is what will make your life wonderful.

~
i love him so much now. HOW?

& ~~they~~ she's the one, who really cares.

ok! something wrong with this post.

i will just let this be, :D!

Too lazy to change. :)

gottobeanotherdaythatihavetoputonasmiletofaceherihateitthiswaymanbutwhatcanidoshethinkit'sherbutit'snotit'sheherselfwhymusttheydontevenbothertotellmeatleastoramialwaystheonewhoissoSTUPID!

SHE GOT A BIG FUCKING MOUTH. _!_

what are friends for?

2009-07-05T05:46:00.003+08:00

It's all about her.
-

SHE spent the night with her boy. only the two of them. it's like so long they had not been together alone. although they do quarrels at times, but still he's the one she love most. & he's someone that can never be replace. she's feeling unhappy now. she's trying very hard to stay happy, but still ther's always something bothering her. she tried not to think about it, she tried not to care, but still she failed. once, someone teaches her what are called friends, real friends. what are they for, who are they and where can she find them. she listen, she learned. she never fails to listen to that person all along. but sometimes, misunderstanding do occurs. now she know, and she understand why that person said those things, do those things and why all others acted this way. she felt so alone now. she felt so left out. she really cannot hold on her tears any longer. but still, she want to stay strong, she never show that side of her to others. the smile she gave you, can you understand it? she tried real hard to please everyone, she really don't know what they want from her now. sometimes, she wish she really have someone she can talk to. so many things, she now understand why others acted this way. everyone is selfish. they acted this way to protect themselves. they can even hurt you for what they wan. it's how they show it to her. now she knows why some others are like that. but, with him around, she never felt alone. if only he will stay by her side forever, everyday, every hours, every minutes, every seconds. when the whole world turn her down, it's him she turn to. when the lights are off, it's him who hugged her. when she falls, it's him who picks her up. when she demand, it's him who tried. when she request, it's him who give. now she knows, who's the one for her. she's not gonna care what all others did or say, all she care about now, is just he & she.

i thought i could trust you.
i thought you were the one.
i thought you are different.
i never know, i'm this to you.

BECAUSE HE SHOW HER LOVE.

Thank to her , whatever they do now don't matter.
she now understand what was it all about.
& now she know, who really care for her.
you are kept, at the bottom of my heart.
i promise i never will forget you.

suddenly feel so like talking to xxx.

i love kenneth lee

2009-07-04T23:17:00.001+08:00

TAN SHU LUAN WILL BE THAT GIRL,

TO LOVE ♥KENNETH LEE KUN LIN FOREVER.

i guess, he's the only one i can rely on.

ohh ohh ohh

2009-07-03T19:47:00.000+08:00

HEY PEOPLE!

Me saw a dead cat right in front of my house. Here's the pictures.

YUCKS?! LOL. BLOOD! Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyyyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!

Stayed over at mac ytd to finish up my homework. crazy? ya. zzz. with KENNETH LEE, TING WEI, HOW SIANG, BAO LONG, CHOON WOON & XUAN WEI!

Wanted to watch movie today. But thery are not free. Plus, i'm too tired, i guess. reached home, fall asleep till dinner time. I don't know what is this feeling. i'm so not feeling well. WHY?! it's kind of like really really cannot put on a smile. shall not talk so much. bye.

-The pictures of the cat so yucks. Therefore, a picture of my mei mei will make my post look better, ya? :D hahahas! :D

You can see the outside, can you see the inside?

& do you know something,

everytime you look at me,

i dunno to smile or not to smile.

the way you look at me,

make me feel so ... ... ... ....

sometimes, i wish i said nothing.

so that nothing happened.

TAN SHU LUAN IS UNHAPPY.

CAN SOMEBODY CHEER HER UP?

SHE's IN PAIN.

going burn midnight oil today

2009-07-02T23:02:00.000+08:00

I know i will never be alone.

Because i have you.

ARGH

2009-06-30T20:33:00.004+08:00

CAN SOMEBODY JUST ANSWER ME, WHY?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK!

first day of school.

2009-06-29T21:52:00.002+08:00

I will blog when i feel like it.
Ther's just too much to be say.
GOOD NIGHTS PEOPLE! :)

i like the way he smile.
it's something i never forget.
i miss him more than so much.

my holiday ended

2009-06-29T00:27:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is the first day of school. SIAN! very very sian. many many things not done. my HOMEWORK!!!! ARGH~! the worst thing is that i got to see xxx & face xxx ! F! *pray hard* really hope xxx wont xxx. !!!!!!!!!!! nothing la. always look on the bright side of life right? so, school will be great tomorrow! :) can get to meet all my friends again. & we can have fun! :D hahahas. i cant wait to see him, :D! anw, something wrong with my comp. wont be able to upload pics. try again tomorrow, :)! went 888 with the guys. they wanted to cut their hair. then to kfc to eat. then to ts house to play. all i can say is one word, NOISY! wahahahahahahhaas! :D anw, mei mei 's friend just came back from Koren. got her some stuff that's so wow. & mei mei gave me a book, :D! show you the next tym, :)! stop here, nights!
-
as day passes, this love for you are building up. it's just that you never knw it. doesn't mean that i dint say it, i dint show it mean that i dont love you. just that, i feel ... ... ... it's better this way. i feel so like holding you in my arms.

kfc breakfast

2009-06-27T09:59:00.005+08:00

GOOD MORNIG !!!!! :D

suprise? hahahas. yupx, i woke up. (: will be going kfc for breakfast later. waiting for kenneth lee to reach & mei mei to wake up, :D! tired! slept at 3+am ytd. was thinking about something. i tried to tell myself not to think so much, but my brain just cannot listen to it. nvm! will be back to update more. see you! :)
-
ANW, talked to AHS on msn ytd. & he was so super duper funny man! i'm like a crazy gal laughing to the computer. hahahahahaas. this is wat i rmb, 'NOY' & 'MONEH' !!! hahahas! :D
-

HELLO!

i'm back. hahahas. kfc's breakfast is not that bad la~ also not that nice. =x i prefer mac's! :) anw, it's like so little man. i'm still hungry. LOL! i'm with mr lee right now. waiting for wcw to sms or call me. dunno where they wanna go~ hahahas. anw, fts just called me. he's also waiting to be told of where to go. all that stupid m'sian fault la. so slow~! hahahahahas. LAME! :) OK! i'm listening to 'far away' right now & just now. i'm so in love with this song. it's nice right? :) this song remind me of you, i miss you so much! hahahahahas. :D anw, samuel ask me abt this song this mornig. he said it's very nice! &YEA~! of cause man! :) got to let mr lee use the comp now. so gtg! BYE! :D
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XW! XW! XW! cheer upppppppppppp~!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant wait to see your happy happy face! xD i got so many to tell you! i love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu lotttttttttttttttttttssssssssssssssss~!!!!!!!!
ME MISS YOU MANY MANY! <3

BACK! :)

went RP-again with mei mei, lee, cw & AHS! :D
then meet ts for dinner.
saw jeremy, jc & hc.
went cck after dinner at cwp.
den home for BOF! :D
pics & more information tomorrow.
NIGHTS people! :)
-

i never felt this way before. this feeling was really great. when you are so close to me, i could feel you. the momentS when your hand touches mine's, your finger felt so good. i so dun feel like letting go of it. but still, i did not hold on to it. i miss you even more now.

so many to be told

2009-06-26T15:35:00.002+08:00

HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH MAN! i got so so so many things not done. HOMEWORK!!! how? haix~

got to stop using comp !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGH! hahahahas. got few things wanna say.

i really enjoyed that moment with ts using the comp.

OMG! he is so so so super *** la !

HAHAS! :D

we, no no no, i mean he.

he edited people's pictures.

laughed with many comments.

viewed & told many things.

& mei mei & me was laughing till so ... !

wahahahahahahahahahahass~~~~~~~

OK! i should AHS is really a great guy la! xD

on the way home ytd, the guys was walking so fast.

actually not fast. is we slow. =x

then only mei mei & me behind.

2 girls in the dark. LOL!

we were walking so slowly,

cos I'm not in the mood plus I'm very tired.

then ONLY AHS will turn & ask us to hurry up.

& he did more then once, twice & thrice. xD

he then stopped and waited for us.

on the way to him, mei mei told me,

" HS IS SO MUCH BETTER THAN THEM LORX. "

yupx. i agree. *big big smile*

hahahahahahahas. :D

he may treat all gals the same way.

but so what?

he did treat me well, :P!

On the way to NTUC ytd,

talked about relationship with my big jie jie.

there are just too many things we dunno.

we are just too young for that.

i know how to view things at another point of view now.

many things are left unsaid.

BYE!

sometimes i really wish i can talk to you like how we used to talk.

so many things to say, so many things to laugh, so many things to hind.

i know we can never do that again. it's ~~not~~ alright.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
stayed at home & did not even touch my homework.
i rather be out to do, SIAN! :X
anw, i helped mei mei in the baking of tarts.
& i read my story book today.
i'm a good gal, hahahahs! :D
this is what i learn;

forgiving others is not for their benefit. it's for yourself. because when you don't forgive them, it ruins your life! :) [ & i really love this sentence! ' where did we get the idea that if WE don't forgive people, THEY will suffer? it's nuts! ' ] hahahahhahahas! :D
never try to change others. it'll only get you frustrated.
want to be happier? everyday, aim to give one person a compliment. (:
laughter is the best medicine.
stop trying to be prefect.
never argue with reality, because reality always wins!
assume that every problem in life is a lesson to make you stronger.
IGNORE THAT IDIOTIC BITCH ! :D

OK! shall stop here. nights everybody. lots love! :D
one last thing, WONG CHOON WOON IS GOING FOR FACIAL TOMORROW!
OMG! i just cannot believe it, that's all. =x
hahahahahhahahahas! nights everyone! bye~ :D

pictures day

2009-06-26T02:46:00.001+08:00

HELLO EVERYBODY!

HEY! hahas. i'm feel so loved today. hahas. many things happened. my feeling chages so fast too. =x ! nvm. got to post some pictures taken from the past few days. Here we go~~~~~~~ !!!

MEI MEI & ME!

we are studying~

OK! i look kind of like ' wat the hell' !!!

It's beautiful right? hahahas. because of the red jacket i'm wearing! :P

guess who's jacket is that? :D wahahahahas. fine, we are crazy enough. that's why we are sisters. hahas! :D & I REALLY LOVE MEI MEI TO THE MAX!!!! :D

This is my love love love! :)

MR LEE plus

MISS TAN equal

LOVE LOVE LOVE!

it's me, me & me!

my face so zzzz ! but he look so cute, :D!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

OK! now is pictures of studying~

OK! can see wilson smiling to himself? LOL! hahahas. & can see guan wei behind mei mei? yupx, he's there too. (: !

This is the acting so pro MR ANG! ( as if it's his house )

ok la, it's about the same. but it's different. look at his legs, :D!

NOW IS PICTURES OF FOO TUNG SHENG!!!!!!

he's viewing somebody blog's.

guess who?

It's SERENE TAN! OMG~! hahahahahahahahhaahhahahahahahas.

& i so dun like him la! IDIOTIC BOY! he say i look like a boy in this pic, :( !!!!

AAAAARRRRGGGGHHH~!!!!!!!!!!! mei mei & him keep laughing at me. =( SAD!

FOUR things i'm not happy about.

FTS say i look like a boy in that pic.
AHS told my sister that i'm fat.
Mr lee made me lose trust in him.
i never knw you are like that.

HAI~!!!!!!!! so sad. am i really that fat? :(! hahahahahahahahas~! :D

SEVEN things i'm happy about.

i help big sister in baking cheesecake.
i talked to jian huang on the msn just now.
i talked to xw about her* just now. hahas!
WCW talked to me~~~~~~ :D !!!!! & thank you, for your care.
AHS* talked to me many many times. & i'm suppose to wake him up tomorrow! :D
STUPID LEE scared me just now. & he's with me know. (: !!!
i think things will be better between us. i love him.

ok, you may knw that i'm refering to you, or you may not knw it. it's okay. i just wanna say it out. i never expect you to be this kind of guy. i count myself lucky to not have a bf like you. you may say the same back to me, that you are lucky to not have a gf like me. it doesn't matter now. if i'm your gf, she will sure be dead. i'm sure! & you are nothing better off too. if you did nth, she wont react this way. i may not knw wat you did or say, but frm my pt of view you sure is not a gd bf. i'm not a gd gf too, you can say that. i really regret doing things like that. before that day, i knw that you & her will ***. & i'm right. i'm not acting la~ but, nvm. it doesn't matter anymore. you may tell your gf about it. but does she knw the whole story? i dun think so. fine, it's non of my business. i wish you the best of luck. take care boy.

i know, my phone will never rings to show your name again.

BITCH! play which ever guy you wan.

STAY AWAY FROM MY BOYFRIEND!

you never wan to get hurt. _!_

fuck your anniversary

2009-06-24T14:17:00.001+08:00

i slept at 630am today.
& woke up at 1pm.
wow?!
i hope it's the other way round.
enjoyed the talk with bao long, ting wei & kenneth.
laughed.
ya, it's so true.
never judge a book by it's cover.
i really pity him to have a friend like you .
FUCK YOU!
excuse me, all those shits you did, i know.
you are nothing better than him.
fuck yourself.
this middle finger is for you. _!_
i hate you even more now.

happy fucking anniversary.

EDITED!

hahahas. i'm so feeling better now.

all because of ANG HOW SIANG!

he's the best thing on earth, :D!

THANK YOU VER VERY MUCH.

he's the only one who care & who can.

i hate you

2009-06-24T04:31:00.003+08:00

THE OUTER BEAUTY YOU SEE

THE FEELING YOU FEEL

THE THOUGHTS YOU THINK

THE THINGS YOU NEVER KNOW.

you are neither, you know nothing !

dont mind, please KEEP YOUR VOLUME DOWN !!!

_!_

a very long blog

2009-06-23T01:09:00.000+08:00

LET TIME REWIND~

i just got so *** to say. slowly, LETS GO! :D

today was our match against woodgrove. lost by 2. it's okay, it's alright. most played really well, did their best. arwis & min hao was there to watch. after that match, we fly fly fly kite. wow?! hahas. jerene, nat, farhana & me. we were playing like so ... ... & till so ... ... ... ! hahahas! it's just so super fun being with them. we are always crazy. wink* ohya! i fly fly fly with min hao too. hahahas. he's good at it, ya. humphxx! went bathing after that. some only. then some home, some wait. THANK YOU to those. jasmine, eunice, shini, TSK! & TSK was the best girl la! hahas. she waited for me. accompany me to my bath, :P! jasmine was there too, for while. she was so dam funny la. hahas. & i really enjoyed being with them. trained to cwp with the loves one! :D jasmine, shini & eunice went amk hub for lunch. & the five of us went to cwp. was resting on the train. OHYA! on the way there this morning, saw a 'YUCKS!' thing on the train. WTF! dun wanna mention much. if not, jerene's neck will break. wahhhaahhahahs! reached cwp. deciding where to have lunch. farhana was so dam cute. she made us laughed. hahas. i mean, the way she is, is so cute. but still, ther's someone who is real cute. hahas. went for lunch, eat & talk. TSK went home. the 4 of us, shopped. when we will about to go home, saw wei xiong & QQ. they are my bro friends la. den wei xiong ask about mp3 colour & blah blah blah. ok, so on & on. den home. met up with mr lee. went vista point for dinner. wanted to buy phone, but the shop was close. LOL! going back tomorrow, i think. was very tired, but still i wanna blog. hahahas. ok! some pictures taken today. & YA YA YA! just happen to look through some old photos. then went to edit some pictures. & YES! the feeling was so great. know why? wahhahahhahas. cos i crop out something. then edited something. & so on la. hahahahas. & really, the pics without * was super nice man! FINE! i'm crazy, so what? i love it man. wahahaas. but in the end, i dint save the photos. SAD* very sad right? if not i can show you. wahhahahahas. but, i knw, you knw, we knw. i never will post those things la! cos spy are everywhere. lalalalas! OHYA! & TSK is a rabbit. because she hop! wahahahas. LAUGHS* :D

SAT! was the start of the game. went there with the girls. saw melissa one the way to buy banana with jerene. really enjoyed the day with her, jerene yeo! kept on talking abt ppy & bbl things. & many more la. so many so many so many more. with her, i learnt. true. just that you never knw. was so dam missing him. hoping to see him aft my match. & ya, i met up with my friends after match. XW, TS & LEE*! :D they are the super great one la! xD hahahaas. they came all the way down to join me for dinner. great friends ya? heex! we went to alot diff place. was so fun. the eating was great! we shared many diff kind of foods. just like a big big family ya? wahahhaas. then was like raining or not raining? hahahas. we carried our foods & go here go there. wahahahas. ok, maybe you don't understand. was so happy. but im just too tired to laugh. hahaas. & Singapore is crazy lorx~! OMG! so loud! ahhahas. TS was scared? hahahas. ya la, he is la. wink* the Japanese are coming. & yes, they are bombing us. hahahahas. ok, LAME! xD my day was so great, because of them. actually got many to tell xw, but i was so tired. i cant talk much. hahas. on the way home, i was sleeping on the train. tired enough? i kept forcing myself to stay awake, but still, cannot. nvm la. hahahas. WA! so late already. & im very tired ya. continue tomorrow. wahhahaas. & i'm crazy enough, cos, i'm not posting this anyway. NVM! :D

HEY HEY! HELLO! hahaahas. i'm back again. LOL!
got to start to recall everything again. hmmmm...... errrr ... ..... ...... where should i start? ya! my blog! changed my blog skin. nice right? i do it myself. clever gal, :D! ya, spent alot time on it. but still, i love it alot alot. much much! hahahas. ok, before i start, got to say this. i blog whatever i want, whatever i like. dont like it? dont read it la. i dint force you to read, did i? !!!! i know, ther's this person who's after my post. wanna see if i did blog bout you ya? see it then. who cares? i dint write your name right? if you think that it's you, then it's you. if you think it's others, den is others lorx. i dont need to explain myself to you. who are you to tell me what to do & what not to do? kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk~!!!!!!!!!!!!!! START! :D

FRIDAY! played soccer with mei mei & AHS. was so super fun. laughed many many. actually wanted to buy my phone. but i was too late. the shop gonna close. so, nvm lorx. went RP with them. wilson & cw was there too. me draw a birthday card for daddy. xD it's his birthday. ya, they came over my house, played, sang song & blah blah blah. wilson went home, meeting his friends. cw left early. liar. told me that he gonna eat dinner with me. LOL! oh ya. told kenneth lee to cal mummy, ask mummy cook my dinner. den me & mei mei so blur. dunno he called. tot he dint. so buy our dinner & ate so happily. then, rmb me told him cal mummy. =X nvm la! hahahas. nothing then. errr, dunno what more to say le. i got stm? cannt rmb le. hmmmm. YA! mei mei told me, she enjoyed her day. because of AHS! she really love playing with him & she told me that he's a good guy. & YES! i agree. (: hahahas. ok! all i can rmb about this day is that cw lied & AHS was great. =D

THURSDAY! it's my netball one day camp. did enjoyed. play match against my gals. after that, help coach out with their training. saw bao long in school. he's a good boy, :D! did all his homework. i haven even touch it. GOD! anw, hon shirley mesg me, :D! ask if wanna go library together tomorrow. still dunno yet, haven comfirm. ok, get back to thursday. thank you ya lim bao long. while waiting for the gals to come to my station, there was nothing i can do. so he talked to me. hahas. thank for your accompany ya, :D! went to mac for lunch with the gals. called my guys & asked if they wanna join. but they were all so tired. LOL! so nvm. enjoyed my lunch with JUJU, TSK, MALI & AISHA! :) & juju is the best le la! she just is the greatest of all. told her many many things. all that happen. especially my class outing. & she told me something that really suprise me. ya, it really did. i never expect this kind of thing will happen. as in, like, hmmmm.... idk la. that guy, that gal, and everything is like so IMPOSSIBLE la! nvm, nvm. (: ohya. coach gave us each a spongebob chain? i dunno wat's that cal. =X nvm! anw, i really love it & thank you many many coach! :D my coach is the world best best best coach! :D hahahas. ok, i offically step down. & the new captain for the b-div are JERENE YEO & EUNICE! and of cause, the vice captain is my beloved gal MUSTIKA NATASHA! (: WORK HARD GALS! and work together, :D! i knw you all can do it. hahahas. for the c-div, the captain is GLADYS! she such a cute gal la. she sure look like the second natasha. hahahas. the way she is, just so is a good good gal. dun give up ya, :D! & & & !!!!! ARGH! that stupid idiot girlfriend of his. sure got a F-face. so so so F-ing action. who do she think she is? GOD! she act till like so !!!! WTF! whatever la. dont wanna give a f* to this kind of f-ing girl. there's too many of this kind of girls on earth. HELL! that ppy also. such good actress. & those stupid ppl was sure stupid enough to believe her bloody act. (: wahahahas! ANW, we had our inline skate. & it's just super duper great! :D all i can rmb is that ONE VERY SPECIAL GIRL FALL DOWN! :P hahahahas. not gonna write your name la. dun wanna make you so ps, :D! wahahahas. dunno who told me that i will be the one falling down ya, :D! & it turn out, who? hahahahs! :D ok la, dun laugh at you la! :D just kidding only la, :D! the skating was so great. lucky dint see many ppy acting. i mean that one la. wahahahas. farhana was so cute la. she act super women den guess what? she fall down. wahahas. she sure is so dam super CUTE! :)

WEDNESDAY! it's my class outing day. hahahas. so dam fun plus so dam great. i so love it. so many many things happen la. i dunno wher to start. hahahas. ok. first, waited for kenneth lee. reached my house and we went to mac to meet the rest. tung sheng was there early with shu lin. then saw serene & xw. ok, we were late, :X! while eating, saw ahmad with afiq. me follow them to arwis house to help them caryy things. with serene xw and shu lin. actually we did nothing. hahas. waited for AHS den went there together. errr, alot guys was there. many mnay of them. so they did their job. hahas. me follow arwis to min hao. wanted to help him but i cant do much. there just is nothing for me to do la. hahas. waited for them den went down together to meet the class. min hao forget to bring his soccer ball so i accompany him up. hahas. just the two of us, wink! xD joke with him about many things. especially serene, hahas. ok. went down saw xw with serene playing. join them. shu lin came over. then shirley square came. shu lin told me something. & blah blah blah~ ok. bus was here. went up. move to the back then to the front to join AHS! played with ser ming handphone. it's so fun. especially with him. (: he's good at the pressing the key pad la~ so i lost. :X! whatever la. reached there, walked a long along way. many things happened. played alot. the best thing about this class outing is that i really change my point of view toward * with the help of XW & serene. & that i get to skate with AHS! holding his hands, :D! ok, so now you gonna say that i'm a bitch? i flirt? go on. say it then. if you think you are better then me. if this is what you cal a bitch, i dunno what is xxx to you. i dun care how are you all gona look at me. i really did hold his hands so i said it. what about you? change all your words? trying to get ppl attention? actually i feel that im an attention seeker but when i get to know what the f* you doing, i feel that i no longer was one. the one is you. why on earth are people pretending? can somebody tell me? i really dont understand. if * really did this, really knw this, really said this, why must * acted this way? as if * was not the one. & im the one?! HAIX! nvm la. i get to play with AHS, CW & jing yee, soccer. was fun? i guess. dunno what is that word for that. nvm. ya! i never want to be like you! OMG! how long have you been on earth? more than 15 years right? why dont you knw that *** ! GOD! you always think that you are so clever what,why dun you knw this? my dear god. why why why? why on earth will you XXX! & he XXX! ARGH! FUCK LA! no brain idiot. the more i think, the more i cannot take it. such good act, such good pretend. and why on earth must give this fuck face? i really got to say. she sure is GIVING ME A FUCK FACE! whatever man. jealous of me? :D hahahahas. i knew that. cos i got blah blah blah & la la la & you got nothing. NOTHING! :) wahahahahahhaas. eeeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyyeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrr! the guys get to stay over. sad! i cannot stay so took the bus & home we go. hahahas. samuel sat with me. & keep on talking to me. about many many things. his family, his friends, his life & blah blah blah. he told me he gonna show me magic. hahas. im waiting, heex heex! actually he wanted to send me home, but dint. reason, many many*. dun wanna say. ok. reached home, was very tired. called FTS. & blah blah blah. idiotic him. whatever la. & still got what happen? i dunno. forget already. all i can remember was that smile he gave me that night. when i say, bye bye. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . !

TUESDAY! went to seng kang dental with kenneth lee, foo tung sheng & tan mei mei. :D hahahas. then went to ah siang house. pass him things on mummy behalf & to check if his alright. & yes, his fine. looking so good, :D! FTS was so sian there. hahas. srry ya! :) btw, i'm the first to sign on his hand. hahahas. cos kenneth is just testing the ink la. hahahas. ok la, fine! i'm the second one. his is the first one. lalalalas!

MONDAY! went to amk then to bugis. went amk for x-ray. with kenneth lee, fts, wcw & mei mei. after the x-ray, went to bugis. ohya, the x-ray is for my teeth, :D! watched ghost of girlfriend past with them. was a great show? i think so. dunno la. i just like it. hahaas. after that, we went shopping. a while later, cw went home on his own. so crazy right? so far! somemore his alone. LOL! ok, if it's me, i sure super dun like it la. i always want ppl accompany. (: ! over all, this day is great. & i so wanna go out with them again. wahaahhahas.

i love this hair! & it sure will look good on him*! :D

OK~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i so miss the time we get together.
i so want to meet up & spent the night with them.

KENNETH LEE
FOO TUNG SHENG
KHEN TING WEI
ANG HOW SIANG
WONG CHOON WOON
LIM BAO LONG
SIM XUAN WEI
SERENE TAN
SAMUEL LEOW
plus mei mei ! :D

HAHAS! ok, think things done. over all should be fine right? idk. so now is, TODAY! xD
i'm so missing him now. very very much. how i wish he will contact me agiain. sad face* once, someone told me, my blogging was very random. all that person understand is those red words at the bottom. really? you do? i dont think so. cos no matter how i wrote it, its just so like, you dont understand it. nvm la. forget it. when you need me, you will come to me. i'm that kind of person to you. ok. i got my phone, :D! so happy! :D i so love it man! hahahas. :D! k, now i gonna talk about my feeling. i dunno why now adays i keep wan to talk to xyz. & xyz is always not in the mood to talking to me? or is this cal not a good time? ohhhh, wrong timing? aiya! whatever it gonna cal. till now, still dint online. think we dun have the fate to talk. i just got so many to tell. nvm. anw, i really miss you very much. i so wanna see you soon. OK! gonna end this long post. just got to say a few things.

i really miss you very very much.
i really dun like her. stupid ppy bbl ! so good at acting.
i really wanna thank this people; jerene yeo, mustika natasha, tan sok keng, melissa lim, tan jia yu, ang how siang, sim xuan wei & serene tan! :D
i so dun like * !!!! ARGH! & i love all the things xw told me, :D! especially the action she do. hahahahahahas. XW! I ALSO HAVE! xD hahahahas.
i love my blog very very much! do you like it? :D
& one last thing, she sure is so act clever!

ok! this are the pictures i love! :D

that's my team. (:

that's my girl. (:

& that's my boy. (:

ANW, my blog will only have 3 post.
this is to prevent that * to know so much.
maybe you all dont understand.
nvm! i just love it this way! :D

OK! GOOD NIGHTS EVERYBODY! :D
LOTS LOVE~!

sometimes life's a merry go round, full of ups and downs, round and round.

wahahahas

2009-06-22T01:07:00.000+08:00

actually i did blog.
but, haven finish.
too tired.
going sleep.
sorry ya.
view it tomorrow.
good nights!

;D

netball match

2009-06-20T23:24:00.002+08:00

YEAHHHH HOOOOO~!
we made it, :D!
will be playing top 8 tomorrow.
GOOD LUCK GIRLS!
hope everything turn out;
super duper fine plus good.
:D
OK!
GOOD NIGHTS! :)
LOTS LOVE!

& one last thing,
he's the best guy on earth.
i love him.

match tomorrow

2009-06-19T23:37:00.000+08:00

SORRY! But i will find time to blog. (:
Having match at Marina Barrage rooftop tomorrow so i need to sleep early.
Hahahahas! :D
Anw, i enjoyed my day today.
Especially the soccer part.
With AHS & MEI MEI! :D
Mei mei also so love it.
& he's so cute! :D
GOOD NIGHT EVERYBODY!
LOTS LOVE! <3

& to this special boy,
i miss you so much.
sleep tights.
loves! <3

super tired

2009-06-18T21:11:00.000+08:00

BLOG TOMORROW!
whahahahas! :D
i'm super tired.

message me if you miss me.
cos you know, i miss you too.
NIGHTS! :D

class outing

2009-06-17T22:47:00.002+08:00

HEY YO! :D

update tomorrow.

class outing today.

netball camp tomorrow.

see you! :)

& i miss that boy, very much.

class outing

2009-06-17T22:47:00.000+08:00

HEY YO! :D

update tomorrow.

class outing today.

netball camp tomorrow.

see you! :)

& i miss that boy, very much.

baking cake

2009-06-16T14:27:00.002+08:00

I'M SURE I WILL LOVE IT TODAY.
-cos i miss you so much! :D

& bloody idiot!
i having match on Thur.
need reach sch at 8am.
so cannot stay overnight.
IDIOT! HAIX!!!!!!
I'm so gonna miss out the fun. =(
& the worst is, i got to miss you again.
*SAD* !!!!!!!!!!!!! =(

WOW - many pictures

2009-06-15T02:22:00.000+08:00

WOW!

OK! before i start, i got to say. i will blog so randomly. so don't scold mi! :D
happy reading! :)

As i had said, my cousin came over to stay overnight. she's home now. kind of miss her. went 888 for supper that day. taken some photos. was so fun playing with them. my sister & her. she is so cute man! she told her sister that i blog about her. hahas. hope that she wanna come again. went swimming with her too. was so super fun. swim with mei mei, kai xin-her, ts & kenneth. went to woodlands swimming pool. there were so so so many people there. plus alot of china. zzz. that morning, ts waited for us. having breakfast. then took 900 to cwp. walked to the pool. on the bus, ts & mei mei keep playing. push here push there. acted till so.... zzz! btw, srry ya, FTS! stepped on your foot. :X! wahahahas. ok, we reached the pool. went in together with mr lee. then LEE & TS went to have breakfast inside. the 3 of us get changed & den swim. we had real great fun there. keep laughing non stop. most of my energy were spent on laughing lorx. LOL! mei mei la. lousy swimmer. dunno how to swim. me & ah xin had to pull her. while pulling, she kept making us laugh. and ya, she saw her ex-school mate there. we were swimming plus pulling her, she was so relax. at there kept talking to her schoolmate while moving. so dam funny la. hahas. ok, so only the 3. the pool was so full with people. TS & LEE* dun wanna go down swim. so we play on our own. then bao bei cal me, ask if we would wanna go to xuan liang house to swim. i told him anything, so he called him & then we went there. the 3 of us was so wet! dry up abit then cab there. lucky bao bei bring extra shirt, :D! i wore his class tee there. hahas. kai xin got extra shirt, mei mei dun have. sad. we cab there. the driver was so zzz. kept talking non stop. then FTS acted again. point XXX behind him. =x! went in there, swim & played alot. bao bei go gym with XL. leaving TS with us. wahahas. then we played police & thieve. he had to run & the 3 of us after him. & so, he went far far away. then we swimmmmm~ hahahas. caught him. ahh xiin did that. clever gal, :D! FTS! you owe her something ya, dun forget the rules, :P! we got hungry, so went to look for foods. ate rasin bread. rested & play again. just so many things happen & so much fun. =D! went to 369 for lunch. & YUCKS! it's so eeeee! not nice at all. i'm so hungry yet i cant finish the chicken rice. ahh xin like dint even touch her noddle. she ate so little. mei mei only eat the chicken meat and french fries. TS commented alot AGAIN. hahahs. then kai xin & mei mei went to take mrt to grandma house. we took bus home. some pictures, swimming! :D

OK! so we went orchard after the swim. BAO BEI, TS & ME! :D shopped. was super tired. went to many shops. each bought each's things. (: they did XXX ! ARGH! nvm. zzz! was so fun. they kept talking non stop. making me laugh. but i really was so tired. cant force myself to laugh much. hahas. sms-ed AHS while shopping. (: went to mac after that. for dinner at around 10pm. saw xxx there. & he* wanna act again. =X LAME! walked home after mac. bao bei wanted to stay, but then went home. took some pictures with him. =D! over all, i think, HE"S THE BEST BF! :D i guess, no other guys can take me like he do. & no others will listen to whatever i said. only he does that. yeah boy, I LOVE YOU! :D & thank for the pictures! :)

woke up this morning, saw 5 message. WOW! hahas. dint expect that many what! guess who mesg me? hahahas! i gotton a sms from FTS! & 4 from MUSTIKA NATASHA! :D at first, i tot is him*. so hopping to see his name there. =( ! nvm la, it's not the first time. so miss natasha la. cant wait to see her, :)! ohya! i cut my hair. *SAD FACE* so short. =( hai! how how how? nvm? it's okay? it'll grow? :( !!! the best thing is that, he said nvm, (: ! i told him, i look stupid & he said i wont. =D! hahahas. he just kept telling me that i wont look stupid. he dint even see me yet, :X! nvm la, hahas. i know he's just a sweet talker. but i love it, :D! wahhahahaahs! i'm so missing him now. i so wanna see you! BOY BOY! I MISS YOU! MANY MANY! *heart-sharp* !!! xD

went CWP with mei mei just now. i love her so many many! :D mei mei is the best thing on earth! :D I LOVE HER! shopped. &bought some things for the class outing. sms-ed while walking. was so happy, :D! hahahas. looked at phones. anybody got any idea of what phone should i buy? i so wanna buy a phone. but dunno which one. help me please! ohya, bao bei came just now. actually not comig, then dunno why come again. ate with him. yummy! (: enjoyed myself. then took bus home. went 888 to cut hair. saw kenneth's sister there. talked. she asked for my e-mail & blah blah blah~ ohya, talked bout his brother too. LOL! OK! i look so ugly plus stupid plus dumb plus idiotic plus alot more la. so not gonna take photos & post. wahhhaaas. wan see how stupid i look? then meet me tomorrow lorx. :D! gonna go amk for x-ray. then to bugis for shopping and fun again, :D! hahahas. i really dint even touch my school bag. dint even pack it since i reached home that day. i need to start working on them after thur. hahas! :D cos wed is my class outing & thur is my netball camp! :D can meet natasha!!! YEAH HO~ :D! sat is our match. OMG! hope luck is on our side this time, :)!

OK! These are the pictures i love most! :D

BEAUTIFUL YA? hahahas. i just love this so much! xD

HUBBY! i love you, :D!

NICE right? i'm so in love with my sister!
she's the best thing on earth.

OK! fine. i look so dumb in this picture. but i just feel so like posting it. & so, blah blah blah. comment all you wan~ &mei mei say my mouth look so stupid. so i pasted this heart! xD

Finally, wanna end this post. but before that, wanna say something.
errrr, i dunno how to put this out. but still, i got to say it.
In a relationship, there will surely be someone hurt. if it's not you, then it'll be the other one. you can never expect a happy ending. or maybe some can. idk. but you? if she choose to let it go, den you have to learn to let it go. she have her choice to choose who she wanna be with, wat she wanna do. you can never tel her wat to do or wat not to do. moreover, it's over. you dont have the right to do it. i know, im an outsider. i know nothing. but, in the outsider point of view, you are hurting her. even deeper. it's time you learn to let go. it'll be better off for both. ther's no point holding on to a butterfly in your plam right? relationship is like a butterfly. you can always hold it in your hand, with the right grip. it can never be too hard nor too lose. you are pressing it even harder, making it unable to live & making yourself suffer. by wasting your strength & .... ! i dun wanna say so much le. i just hope that everything will be fine. i wan her to have all the happiness in this world. i wan her to be a goody good gal. a very good one. I LOVE HER!
* if it belong to you, nobody can take it away from you. if it don't, forcing it make no diff too*

OMG! i love today to the max!
i'm so in love with him. <3!
talking to him, was super great.
i never wanna fall asleep.
boy, i'm so in love with you.
you are far beyond cute.
i miss you to the max now!
i miss you! :D

fuck up mood

2009-06-14T13:32:00.000+08:00

FUCKER !

-promise breaker.

a tired day

2009-06-14T00:15:00.000+08:00

BLOG TOMORROW!
VERY VERY VERY TIRED!
& I'm not happy.

PS; i miss MUSTIKA NATASHA VERY MUCH! (:

ARGH! i hate you.
you 4gotten your promise.
i don't like you.
but still, i miss you.

money money money

2009-06-12T23:40:00.000+08:00

MONEY?

what is it man! hai! it's really that impt? god. super upset lehhhhhhh! my teeth! hai. i had spent alot alot on it. & theres still more to pay for. sain! & tomorrow going swim! :D + shopping! yeah hoooo! :D wahahhahahahahas! :D later going supper with cousin & mei mei! (:

SHU LUAN is not happy. so so so not happy. she feel so sad, so sad. she dunno why did he treat her this way. sometimes, he treat her so good. so nice. but sometimes, he ask her to leave him alone. she felt really upset. it's not his fault anyway. his' not in good mood. but she miss him very very much. she just wish that he can talk to her. like how he did 2 days ago. he was so sweet. so dam sweet. she just miss him! many many many. at first, everything was fine right? why did he suddenly change his mood like that? can she just leave him alone for today? :( !!!!!!!!!!!!
SHE MISS HIM! :(

He's hot & he's cold.
He changes his mood real fast.
He's someone special.
i miss his smile! (:

i miss you alot

2009-06-11T23:47:00.001+08:00

Today's fun. got alot things to do. yet not done. AHS not around today. dint get the chance to meet him. kind of like, miss him. got to see him 2mr, yeah! discuss class outing games with the guys. thank you alot, for the ideas. samuel was great! helped me all along. cheer me up & tell me not to worry much. edric poh & wei sian! ideas was great. thanks for helping. WCW helped too. but his ideas kind of like, wth. it's okay la. thanks for your help too. still got alot more to do. got to buy things & so on. lucky i have FTS by my side. who will help me all along, thank you! went school with FTS today. JUJU need reach sch at 11am. so tell me meet TS go. me so happy. hahahas! while walking to school, saw KTW. walked in together. then they went off to the canteen. i walked & sitted down, alone. there's so much peace. cool. then lesson went on, as normal. without AHS, felt kind of quiet. OHYA! XW dint went to sch too. kind of sian~ & TS got smth wrong today. he kept on tell me to help him. wahahahas. this feeling was so so so great. let him enjoy man. rock on! hahahas. then saw coach & my netballers during my recess. they saw my teeth. & many said it look so good. wahahas. kind of like so happy la. wahahas. & ther's someone who said my teeth look cute. (: HAS! k la, there's also some idiotic one who give negative comments. so what? i dont care! look at your own teeth before talking to me (: HAS! i'm missing my braces now. sad. it's so colourful! now that it's gone, hais! ooooookkkkkkk! KTW & LBL send me home today. THANK YOU! & for the talk. GOD! i'm so so so super duper happy with LIM BAO LONG! i just love whatever he said la. wahahahas. i think so too. her weirdo face with that broom hair look so shit. & because those dumb boys have shit in their eyes thats why they think that way. right bao long? hahahas! ok. they said my talk was so random. yeah, it's true. i just blog whatever im thinking at this point of time. & so, it's so messy? dont read it la~ nobody ask you to read also what. zzz! played soccer with them again. then they went home. FTS lied again. where's that promise? HAS! nvm la, :D! i so wanna meet you all tonight for supper lehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ !!!! but, haix! i dunn wann la! whatever. & my cousin CHUA KAI XIN is here. she wanna go for supper. always* whenever she's here, she wan supper at 888. hahahs. think will be bringing her there tomorrow. friday! anybody wanna tag along? ahhas. ok, im abit off today. my mood swing here & there. lalalala! OHYA! my cousin called me just now. LIM WEE SIANG! ahh siang ya! i miss you much much! xD guess why he phone me? hahas. cos i put on my msn nick, 'i wan my phone to ring NOW.' & so, he called me. GOD! i felt so loved. such a sweet guy ya, (: i so love him. felt so good that he care for me! xD hahahas! anw, ther's also others who care. i dunno how to put in words. thank you. i just so dun feel like thinking so much. what more do you expect from me? why always show attidute? it's me again? fine. it's always me. she's like that, he's like that. then who's not like that? i really dont feel like caring so much. it's so beyond my control. how i wish you all never appear in my life. but too bad, you all did. i dunno what more to do. i just wish to be alone. that feeling was so great. ther's no quarrel, no attitude, no problems, no worries, no sadness, no nothing. ARGHHHH! i dunno la! i just miss him* now. very very very much! you will never understand this. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok! this time, i blog alot! :D so unlike ytd & the day before. hahas. ohya. i so love ytd! YESTERDAY!!!!! i love love love yesterday. wahahahaas. he's so sweet. he's so cute. he's so WOW! :D i kept thinking about him man! cool baby! xD STOP LA! why am i so 'like that' huh? keep changing my mood. siao! crazy gal. hahahas. i love being called a crazy gal. because i rmb, he called me that. :D CARZY GAL CRAZY GAL CRAZY GAL CARZY GAL CRAZY GAL CRAZY GAL CARZY GAL CRAZY GAL CRAZY GAL CARZY GAL CRAZY GAL CRAZY GAL CARZY GAL CRAZY GAL CRAZY GAL CARZY GAL CRAZY GAL CRAZY GAL CARZY GAL CRAZY GAL CRAZY GAL CARZY GAL CRAZY GAL CRAZY GAL CARZY GAL CRAZY GAL CRAZY GAL CARZY GAL CRAZY GAL CRAZY GAL CARZY GAL CRAZY GAL CRAZY GAL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WAHAHAHHAHAS~ i so wanna go crazy! i miss him alot alot man! alot! awwww~ :P hahas! i kept reading the sms he send me lehhhh! how? like crazy girl like that. never mind la. i happy can already wat, right? wahahhahahahahahhahahahhahahahahhahahahhahahahahs!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so wannna go shopppppiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnngggggggggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wanna buy so so so so so so so many things!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D HAHAHS! :D OK LA! i think i can no longer control myself anymore. you had changed me. in many ways. it's not that i dont care. it's i am no longer able to care anm. goodnight everybody. I LOVE THIS FUCKING WORLD! _|_

FYI, i'm reading 'HAPPINESS NOW'. & it teaches me many things.
Life is never fair but it doesn't matter why!

NOW, in whatever things,
whatever ways,
whenever i think of you,
it made me tears.
i had fallen too deep into you.

i fall for him

2009-06-11T01:02:00.000+08:00

I WILL MISS YOU VERY VERY MUCH !!!!!

BARCES GONE!

2009-06-09T22:13:00.001+08:00

MY BRACES ARE GONE !!!!!!!!!!!
:D

i guess, i love you more than anything.
just that you never knew it.
i promise, i will be there.
if you allow me to.

BLOODY papaya and also banana

2009-06-08T22:48:00.002+08:00

I know i dont look good in this.
But i still wanna post it,
Becos i wan you to know;
i love talking to you! xD

There's just more than alot i wanna say.

I felt so happy talking to you! :D whatever it is, THANK YOU!
Had training with the girls today. Tired + hot. SIAN~!
Missing MELISSA LIM alot alot! - GET WELL SOON GAL!
Enjoyed talking to JERENE YEO! juju loved! :)
So wanna go swimming !!!!
I'm missing him much much.
Tomorrow going dental. Dunno if my braces will be taken out. =X
KHEN TING WEI take care of your hand, :D !
Feel so wanna sleep now. *tired*
OH YA! I hate fruits* very very much. Wat a Blah blah blah, Lalala, Ohhh Ohhh, Da da da, Ya ya ya thing! so F-ing F* up with that STUPID IDIOTIC ASSHOLE! so good at acting ya? HAS! continue man! carry on. such a B*! your act may fool others, but not me. (:
Kind of upset? or was it angry? or was it disappointed? i never knew my care for you was bully to you. no matter how bad ppl say bout you, how worst they describe you as, i kept that good image of your inside my heart. i knew you never was this kind. but i was wrong. so wrong. & it's you, who prove it to me. i tried to cover everything up for you, telling them that it's not what they think or see, but i was the fool. the one who believe in you. such stupid me. alot things happened. i did nothing or maybe i said nothing. that does not means i dunno. i just wanna wash everything off, so that i can keep that good image of yours. but, it's just too pure to be true. i dunno for Wat reason must i care so much. who are you to me den? HAS! it's not my problem right? i never knew that you will used me this way. kind of like, lost. i dunno how should i see you as now. i just hope the i knew nth. NOTHING!

I SO FEEL LIKE SAYING THIS!
GO HOME & DRINK YOUR MOTHER MILK LA! B****!!!!!

OK! There's still many many things i wanna blog about, i wanna talk about. But, kind of like dunno where to start from. So, let it be la~ dun gif a f* now. since XXX so XXX !!!! *ARGH*
& i'm so SCAREDDDDDD!!!! gonna go dental 2mr. :( [ go with me, will you? ]

it's now then i knw, i care too much.
i never was the one you trust.
just the one you lied to.
you changed my point of view.
i wish i never knew.

dunno wat to post

2009-06-07T22:46:00.000+08:00

5-1 having a soccer match with 4-5.
Thursday, 11 June 2009.
Don't miss it.
come & watch! sure will be great!

The best feeling on earth, was
When the first thing you saw when you woke up,
Was that there was someone there to wake you up.
& thank you for that. =)

soccer match

2009-06-07T01:54:00.004+08:00

HELLO !!! HELLO !!! HELLO !!!

I'm super duper duper happy today! :D
BOY! i so so so love you! (:
& I'm in love with this yellow happy face.

5-1 having a soccer match with 4-5.
Thursday, 11 june 2009.
Don't miss it.
come & watch! sure will be great!
I will be there to support you.
you will be the best player. (:
i wanna hug you tight. LOVED!

darling boy

2009-06-06T12:12:00.000+08:00

I MISS YOU, DARLING BOY!

I will be meeting my cousin later.
Going amk hub den ah ma house.
Wont be able to see him later.
Got to miss him alot alot.
BOY! it's true. i miss you.
The first thing i do when i woke up,
Was to turn to my phone.
Just hopping that i can see your sms.
Maybe you are still sleeping.
I don't know why,
The image of you keep appearing.
I kept hearing, the words you said.
Whatever it is, it's you you & you!
All the things you said,
Was kept right in my heart.
I'm so missing you now!
When i got the chance to talk to you,
I always don't want to. LOL!
& it's when you are not around,
I start missing you very much.
I cant wait for monday to see you.
OK! i got to get ready now.
Take care alot.
Be a good boy.
Do your homework.
I will miss you alot.
*hug hug* <3!

do you know that when my phone rings,
i ran so fast to it?
just hopping that it will be from you.
but always, it's not.
i saw a mesg this moring.
i quickly open up my eyes,
& found out that,
it's not from you.
it kept on ringing,
kept on receiving sms.
but none is from you.
i feel like throwing my phone away!
ARGH! i dont need any explaining.
s-t-o-p is the word i heard.
& o-k is the word i gave.
you can do what ever you want.
whatever you like.
i may be nobody to you.
but you are somebody to me.
when you looked at me,
i fake a smile, so you wont see.

cry out loud

2009-06-06T02:24:00.000+08:00

STUPID GIRL !

i dunno where to start, what to say. you think that it does not affect me? you are wrong. so wrong! i feel so wanna cry out now. i keep holding on. holding on to everything that is happening. i tried so hard to trust & to believe. i tried so hard to fake that smile. do you know how much it hurts me? you don't. i may be so strong on the outside, but on the inside? i really wish i have someone who i can talk to. someone who i can tell everything to. don't tell me you can, because you can't! i can no longer hold my tears. now it's falling. non-stop. OK, fine. laugh, go on. laugh all you wan. i can no longer take it! not anymore. how i wish time can rewind. to the time where it's just us. us playing, us talking, us walking. and if i can get hold of your hand, i never wanna let it go again. i so wanna feel you. I'm so into you. the way you talked to me, the way you smiled, the way you tried to get my attention, the way you wanted my care. likewise, i want yours. you hurt me deeply. &you still dunno it. do you know that the smile i put on was so being force to? the pain in my heart was like so, i dunno how to say it. ya, true. i also dunno why i care so much. so Wat am i gonna do now? pretend that nothing had happened? i tried to. but sorry, things will never be the same. I'm not angry. I'm disappointed. I'm upset. I'm heart broken. I'm dying soon. i got to stay strong. in order to see that smile on your face. i feel so wanna die now. i had fallen too deep into you. <3!

BOYS OUT THERE!
never ask a girl why she care so much.
because it hurts so much. so much.
I WILL BE STRONG!

stay strong

2009-06-04T21:43:00.005+08:00

CRAZY by simple plan.

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Young girls dying to be on TV
They won't stop 'til they've reached their dreams
Diet pills, surgery
Photoshopped pictures in magazines
Telling them how they should be
It doesn't make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on
Tell me what's going on
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

I guess things are not how they used to be
There's no more normal families
Parents act like enemies
Making kids feel like it's WWIII
No one cares, no one's there
I guess we're all just too damn busy
And money's our first priority
It doesn't make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on
Tell me what's going on
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

Is everybody going crazy?
Is everybody going crazy?

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Rich guys driving big SUVs
While kids are starving in the streets
No one cares, no one likes to share
I guess life's unfair

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on
Tell me what's going on
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something, something is wrong

Is everybody going crazy?
Can anybody tell me what's going on
Tell me what's going on
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

IT'S TIME YOU LEARN TO BE INDEPENDENT.
TAN SHU LUAN

I hold my tears very well, until i cant take it anymore. So, i burst in crying. And when i cry, no one can resist but hold me close to comfort me. I evoke a sense of protection in people around me. }is this true?

I HEART HIM.
*hug hug*
<3 !

sister

2009-06-03T02:56:00.000+08:00

I JUST WANT PEACE! FORGET EVERYTHING PLEASE!

The best thing on earth will be her.
I felt so good being with her.
I LOVE TAN JIA YU! :)

i would want to forget everything,
but not you. <3!
because of you,
i never felt alone.
im so in love with you.
i miss you many many.
NIGHTS! <3
see you TODAY! xD

OMG

2009-06-03T00:24:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOD !

-i think i just don't belong here.

Because of me, so many things happened.
I feel so like 'get out of this world' !!!!
All because of ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SORRY SORRY SORRY !!!!
I dunno Wat more to explain.

IT'S ALL YOU FAULT LA TAN SHU LUAN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you bloody go and die.
all because of you, BITCH!
stop your stupid bloody childish act.
GROW UP!
dun expect everybody to please you.
who do you think you are?
the queen? or the princess?
i just so hate you. !!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK is the word for you.
GO AND DIE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SORRY SORRY SORRY!!!!!!!!!! XXXX

what a wonderful + great day with them, & HIM* !
In the end, you ended up so unhappy.
know why?
ALL BECAUSE OF YOURSELF!
you ask for all this.
blame no one, but YOU!
STUPIDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THANK YOU!
with you around, my smile wont disappear.
i fall deeply into you.
i know i love you, more than anything.
sleep tight boy. <3!
GOOD NIGHTS!

facebook quiz

2009-06-02T17:46:00.003+08:00

OK! i slept around 5am this morning & woke up at 10smth. do some stuff. chat with FTS! all along, even now. =X then was like so kind of nothing to do. so do some quiz. & the results :

what kind of mask do i wear?

Your mask is Beauty. You are beautiful inside and out. You aren't too aware of your beauty, although all the people around you are. There are times when you feel like you're wearing a mask, but no one around you can notice the difference with or without it. You may feel vulnerable at times, but you usually get through it. You sometimes wish you had someone to help you through those tough times, but you are always hopeful and don't give up easily. People who first meet you notice your beauty oat a glance, but most people notice it when they get to really know you.

-yeah, true. i sometime feel like im wearing a mask. & i always wish that i had someone to help me through those tough times. :D

how annoying am i?

Wow, you've got a lot to say and you're going to be heard whether people like it or not. You probably also make people cringe internally, but who cares! It's ok that you're incredibly annoying, many people are. Can you change? Sure, but what's the fun in that?

-WAHAHAS! i love to say whatever i like. who cares about what you think of me huh? :D

what quote represents my life?

"Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you're going to get."

You have a pretty mellow and easy going outlook on life. You are ready for any curveball that life throws at you."

- ya. i never know what im going to get in my life.

Your Personality Evaluation Quiz

You have a need for other people to like and admire you, and yet you tend to be critical of yourself. While you have some personality weaknesses you are generally able to compensate for them. You have considerable unused capacity that you have not turned to your advantage. Disciplined and self-controlled on the outside, you tend to be worrisome and insecure on the inside. At times you have serious doubts as to whether you have made the right decision or done the right thing. You prefer a certain amount of change and variety and become dissatisfied when hemmed in by restrictions and limitations. You also pride yourself as an independent thinker; and do not accept others' statements without satisfactory proof. But you have found it unwise to be too frank in revealing yourself to others. At times you are extroverted, affable, and sociable, while at other times you are introverted, wary, and reserved. Some of your aspirations tend to be rather unrealistic.

-YUPX! true, that's the word. (:

my love quote:

"I feel lucky everyday I'm with you"

You love hanging out with him/her. You'll pick him/her over your friends and felt like in heaven wen together.

- ya. i will always put you first. over everything. i love you. <3>

what is the theme song of my life?

CIRCUS by britney spears.
The All-Eyes-On-Me-In-The-Centre-Of-The-Ring type. You love, you have to be; the centre of attention! Your life is full of drama, in fact, they may be basing a soap opera on it, so your just loving the attention. At times, people believe your life is actually a fiction book playing out before their eyes. In the words of Britney Spears "All Eyes On Me In The Centre of The Ring, Just Like A Circus!" Live your life up, but don't over work it!

- ok. maybe i really do love attention. :D

DONE!
will be meeting up with xw & serene tan later.
HOPE WE DO HAVE FUN! xD
AHS & FTS !!!!
THANK YOU VERY MUCH.
AHS, thank you for lending me your ears. :D
talking to you was great. AWESOME! - yes, it's this word.
FTS! since i woke up till now, thankyou.
having someone like you by my side,
was super duper great.
even though you very very LAME!
anw, stone more at home ba.
BAD GUY! xD
HAHAS! ok, end here.
update again tonight.
WCW! dun sleep, wait for me. (:

Anyway, i will be waiting for your mesg.
BOY! i so wanna meet you up. <3!

no more chinese

2009-06-02T04:04:00.000+08:00

BINGO !

Clever gal, like what you've expected.
A, B, C, D, E, F, G!!!

OK! The best is MT O-LEVEL IS OVER! finally. I'm dam scared man. but now, HAS. it's over. no need to worry so much Le. yeah~ i did not finish my writing for paper one. about 2-3 more sentences to go. but nvm la. i cannot do anything now. just hope that luck will be on my side. for paper 2, so dam LOL man. i used 1hr & 15mins for the last 2 writing passages. i did that first. & when the examiner said that I'm left with 15mins, I'm still writing. & ther's 4 more passages for me to read. & so, i rushed. quickly read & then answer. was like so rubbish. & I'm so afraid that i might get all those wrong. & i was so upset when the exam end. but when i saw ♥XW, things changed! i talked with her & ♥serene tan! we talked about the answer & so on. & i felt so much happier la, hahas. den went to the hall, for CCA thingy. went up to miss lim hui qi to thank her for her sweets. (: den while walking down to the canteen, we saw xw's 'da la ba'. NO NO NO! i mean shirley tay's. hahahahs! LOL! it's just so fun being with them nowadays. then we walked xw to the gate, & talked there. saw ghan siang & samuel. they said bye bye & went to the bus stop. then xw went off, go home. we went back to the canteen to meet the guys. den shared lunch. they talked & played while CW sat alone, acting cool. ya, AGAIN! :X wahahahs. after eating, went to the gym. we did nth much there. or maybe is, nothing there. wahahas. we went outside the gym to play soccer. AHS, ME, SERENE, CW! hs & me VS cw & her. LOL! the playing was fun. cos AHS was seriously super duper cute. the way he played, was like so ... .... .... *i cant take my eyes off him* ! it's not that he's that good, but just that, ... .... OK, fine. i dun need to explain it anw. OHYA! i saw that gal outside school while sending xw off. although she did nth to me, i find her so fucking yucks. she just got that idiotic ugly face. & for whatever she did, i feel so like wanna kill her. ARGH! i really dun understand why must he xxx her. Wat the hell ! if she dint appear in this world, will he still be the same? this kind of boy? OK, maybe none gets what I'm saying, hahas. after the soccer, we helped hs with his reflection. & i like touching his hair. (: wahahahs! after that, we went to the hall. the 4 of us again. we hide & cw cant find us. LOL! wahahas. that small room is dam dark. the feeling was so ... .... i don't know how should i put this in words. while playing, the others came. they shouted for us, but we just don't care. wahahahas. finally cw found us. LOL! then went to play basketball & soccer under the sun. alot more things happened, but i so don't feel like saying it. anw, FTS! sorry arx, i dun mean to hurt your back. i dunno. sorry. OK, after playing, went to 888plaza. serene, cw & i went there first while they played soccer outside my house. treated cw his waffle & bbt. & received what i won, my bbt, :D ! then serene went home. we sat at kfc. they had their dinner. cw then went off. the conversation was funny, but i cant put myself to laugh. suddenly something came up my mind. i wasn't feeling that well anw. kind of cold & so i leave first. was very fuck up on the way home even it's just a few mins walk. reached home. wanted to have my dinner, but i cant put myself to eat. & so, bathed & slept. woke up at 11smth. & saw two mesg from A. how i wish it was from B. i know for B to sms me was like so . . . yet i . . . . NVM! i know A will always stand by me no matter what. don't expect anything from me. just wan to see me smile. whenever i need someone to talk to, i know i have A. but i dun want it to be A. for so many things that happened, i know ther's no used to get upset or unhappy over what C did. if C think that by bombing all this rubbish will make me C's friend, you are wrong. this just make me so dun like you. i dun F* understand what's all those for. & i seriously dint ask you anything right?! whatever~ i know i got D,E,F & G !!! &many many more. i dun need to care so much. when you need me, some how you will come to me, :D!
OK! talked with cw abt this person. i don't why you say all this things. & if you think you want to stay away so that you wont get hurt or be left out or have no friends or whatever, you will first lose me as your friend. i am who i am. i dont act like what you do. i love being out with guys, i love playing with them, i love talking to them. cause honestly, i think guys are just so much better then gals. what do you expect from me den? it's not like now then you know me right? more than a few years la, OK! by now, you still dun understand me, ther's nth i can say or do. you always tell me, I'm your best friend, i need help i can find you, i got problems you can help me solve, but now? what did you told him? I'm just so disappointed with you. be it on studies, relationship, playing, helping or whatever, i think i did my best for you to keep you as a friend. maybe staying away from me will make you have more friends. then do it then. just wait in your dream that i will GO FIND YOU TO TALK TO YOU! i think i did alot more for you then for others. i don't understand what is the fucking reason for you to say all this. WHATEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!

for whatever you do, i get so affected.
i really enjoyed my time with you.
& i love being with the you when you are with me.
you are just so different from all other side of you.
i tried to trust you, but you lied.
not once, not twice.
I'm so in love with your smile.
& i hate your phone!
I'm not jealous.
i wanna see your name on my phone again.
♥SLEEP TIGHT.

o-level tomorrow

2009-05-31T22:52:00.001+08:00

GOOD LUCK EVERYBODY !!!!!!!!!!!
ALL THE BEST !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

& JIA YOU YA! TAN SHU LUAN.
- you can do it. =D

i miss him

2009-05-30T12:05:00.003+08:00

I MISS THAT ♥BOY !!!!

-i just feel so wanna see you.

*Missing someone gets easier everyday, because even though it is one day further from the last time you saw each other, it is one day closer to the next time you will.*

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SERENE, thk for your acc today. i felt so much better after talking to you.

Boy, do you know that,
i felt so happy being with you?
& whenever my phone rings,
i was so excited when i saw your name on it.
i was hopping that the night wont come,
so that our conversation never ends.
i wanna see your name on it again.

Blood Donation

2009-05-29T18:50:00.001+08:00

SHU LUAN IS A BRAVE GIRL! :D

Hahas, i went for blood donation today. was really scared at first. but, it's over! i'm ok! it's not really that painful, that scary. IT REALLY DONT HURT. (: HAS! i'm brave ok, :) not everyone dare to do it, right? &you! WONG CHOON WOON! you told me that if i dint turn up, you gonna nag me for very very very long, right? HAS! now is your turn la, scary cat! xD you dint turn up. whatever the reason, you break that promise. so, wait for my nag. (: SCARY CAT!!!!!! :D ohya, thank you very much friends! for all your 'power'. Escepially, SIM XUAN WEI & SERENE TAN!

THANK YOU VERY MUCH! :D

For all the care you all shown, (: ! i'm fine now. jing yee & shirley tay went for the donation too. but, they fail to donate because cannot find theri veins. I think so. AHS also. i felt sad for them, but it's alright. ther's always the next time. thank you ya, shirley & jing yee! your accompany shoo my fear away! :D i felt so much better with you all around by my side. the guys went for it too. FTS-god, ting wei, bao long, alvin, edric poh, ghan shiang, arwis, min hao, sing yong, lin kai, ahmad, afiq & who arx? ther's many more. edric was the first one among them. shirley tay & i sat at the chair, while waiting for our turn, we chat with sing yong. (: mr loy 's there too. mr ben, mr jack & so many more teachers la! hahas. ghan shiang was very scared at first. can tell from the look on his face. wahahas. anw, his's barve! :D TAN GHAN SHIANG! not pain right? keep it up, brave boy! :D MIN HAO TOO! he was so scared lah~ hahas. & then, it's over. he's alright. LIM BAO LONG ALSO! KENNETH LEE KUN LIN ALSO*!!! ok, i'm afraid too! :X wahahaas! it look so scary, but it's not. :D I feel so good now. After this donation! ok, i gotton talk about it now. went to resgister with jing yee & shirley tay. then shirley & i went up the room. saw edric they all. sat beside them, talked. then jing yee & AHS came in. went over to find AHS! (: talked & walked around with him. he's someone nice to be with. <3! & FTS too! You taught me how to use the phone, RMB? Wahahahas! OHYA!

THANK YOU TAN JIA YU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

me SO SO SO LOVE MEI MEI! :D Ytd mei mei pei me go vista pt, :D! then talked with her. & now, she cooked noddle for me. hahas! it feel so good to have a sister like you. i love you gal. :D
OK! i will end it here.

i'm missing that boy really very very much.

i ♥ him.

TO: that idiot lamer

i know you know is you. & i knw you will sure view this. i just wanna tell you, SORRY. i dun mean what i really said. or maybe, i mean it. some of it. i really dunno that he will cal you. i will stop him if i knew. he had gotten the wrong idea, same goes to you. what i wrote wasn't all about you. it's your best friend la~ you should know wat, :X ! zzz. i just gonna say everything out here now. since ther's no way i can talk to you. i felt happy being wit you. & it's really fun. i'll laugh till like so.... oh man! hahas! but the things i dun like is that, i seriously dun like you touching me. or maybe getting so near to me. you may ask, why the rest can & you cant. the answer to it is: i duuno. i really dunno. i dun like that kind of feeling. it's somehow scary. maybe because of the things you did. &maybe becos they are closer to me? i 'hv known them since pri sch. &ther's a trust between us. i dun wish to lose a friend like you. someone i can talk to, someone who told me things, helped me all along & someone great. i know everything happened because of me. im sorry. i shouldn't had told him things. i should never trust him all along. LOL! i dun like the way he get things solved. i knw he care but that's not the way. aiya! nvm la. i know you are not that xiao qi de horx? will see you 2mr in school at 9am right? just hope that you can treat me the same way like how you did. ( but just that, dun get so near to me, :X ) i really dun like your answer to me today. just shake your head & say a no? that's so not like you. i tried to talk to you. but you seem so 'dun wanna talk'. you dint even look at me. that's not very polite ya, hahas! :D anw, we will be meeting up for breakfast 2mr. i hope that you will turn up. &everything will be fine. MSN me or SMS me 2mr. SEEYA! & i'm really so sorry.

mood swing

2009-05-28T18:10:00.001+08:00

PISSED OFF !

OK! I'm weird. I'm having mood swing. so what? provoked. I really fucking hate this world. What the hell you want from me? i really dun understand! how many times had i explained? what more do you want me to say? when can i tell you everything? when?! i keeping holding on, trying to stay strong, but i cant. i cannot take it anm. how long must i hold on? how many more things must i keep? when will you finally understand me? please stop acting. others may not know or understand you well enough. but I'm not others. stop pretending can you? CAN YOU?!!!! FINE! it's me, OK? ME! I'm the one to blame for everything that happened. i really don't understand why is there a need to lie about studies. if you did revise, you did. if you dint, DINT! when the results are out, you just pretend that nothing happen? WTF! i also cannot stand you anm. do you think that you are really that fucking clever? stop making use of ppl, no. i mean boys. boys dun fall for ugly gals like you. you are also the same. do you think that you are so fucking looking good? WTF. i seriously hate the way you acted. & please, stay away from me. i find you super duper YUCKS! you acted so differently in front of them. when they are not around? what the fuck you did? i kept quiet doesn't mean that i like it. i kept quiet because i dun wan to make you lose your fucking face. stop acting like you really know me. YOU DON'T! nobody, NOBODY understand me. I'm really tired of the smile i gave. I'm force to. i am not someone you turn to when you need me, my dear. when you have someone with you, your eyes just dun see me in it. when no one is with you, you saw me, you found me. i dun like it this way. but i dun know how to tell you. i rather you have someone with you and never see me in your eyes, please. now that he told so much about him, I'm really afraid of everything. because he just look so simple to me. one who will never do this kind of things. but, i still wanna help. you all may not understand what i am writing. never mind. you don't need to understand. i just wan to let things out. cause honestly, there is no one i can turn to. don't tell me you can. cause you cant. you are not me. you don't understand. there are just too many hidden secrets that nobody wish to know. it's best, i keep everything to myself. i dun wanna hurt anyone. oh ya. I'm upset or angry or whatever is not because of my results. it's because of this this this & that that that. you fucking dunno please don't act like you fucking know. I'm gonna suffer again tomorrow. never mind, it's not the first time. i really wish that i can be alone, even though i really hate being alone. but as for now, i dun wish anyone to ask me anything or Wat. because i really don't feel like talking about it. and i dun wan you to know. so please stop asking. just read & keep your mouth shut. & STOP ACTING CUTE! it's not cute at all. it's yucks. what the hell. and stop telling me all the stupid things can. because when you say this, you do that. and when you say that, you did this. you can continue to tell your stupid lies to others but not to me. i had seen through you. your lies wont work on me again. i was stupid to believe you, the last time. bloody fuck. just leave me alone, will you?! & you = diff ppl. =X

i really miss the you whom i can talk to.
everyday, every night, every time.
you gave me everything i wanted.
i find no other guys better than you.
but now, you had changed.
i no longer find you anymore.
i never love someone like the way i love you.